iloveGREEN! (:

2007-07-15T20:16:00.000+08:00

been getting dizzy spells since friday. oh well.
oh and i was supposed to go Presentation Night this coming tuesday, but, oh well. sorry brandon!
OHMYSHIT. my parents are thinking of moving. how sudden.
first, we have an extremely annoying neighbour who shouts at his dog, literally barking back at it. it drives us mad i tell you.
second, 3 out of 4 of us either work/study far from the east.
third, my two rooms here are equivalent to my one room in elias.
fourth, the neighbours are not as friendly or close as elias. okay, ben is pretty nice, and the auntie that calls me pretty girl. HAHAHA.

but whatever it is, i guess if we really end up moving, i will miss this place.

OHCOOLLL! jiawei, your dad is damn cool. he actually bought you an NUM bag?! and its the same as mine. hahaha. see, now we three have something in common, as in a thing, not a personality. HAHA. okayy, ernest's one is of a different colour, but at least they're of the same design. coolshit. anyway, see you on saturday! text me soon about the details kay? LOVES!

events to look forward to the coming few weeks,
one, RAPTURE this coming sat!
two, NDP PREVIEW next sat!

i think livej is pretty cool, but guess what, i have no idea how to use it. will someone teach me? haha. GOODNIGHT TO ALL! (:

&&& give me more class outings! i love them!

Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice it's my disguise
I'm by your side

2007-07-14T16:26:00.000+08:00

yesterday was a good day! first, we didnt have chem tut since ms tan wasnt around. so 1st 90 mins free. then geog was cancelled due to unknown reasons and finally, gp was cancelled cause ms lee wasnt around. WOOHOO! so i rushed home after sch and rushed to town to meet joshua to study. well, we ended up talking alot. haha. yes la, im honoured that you trust me. haha. oh well. lets go study at siglap macs! and dont forget you must bring me to island creamery soon! so yup. the reason why we went to study in town is because the class is celebrating
's birthday! look at him man! he's so cute! HAHA.
so joshua and i went to book a place at

for dinner. thankfully, we got enough seats. haha. but the class was super late. we were there at 630, while most arrived around 7 plus. so joshua started to cam whore with my phone. TSK!

praveen with mr fong!

black green black green. how nice.

TWINNY!

i like this photo! haha.

mr fong, ever ready for a photo.

see. haha.

him with the class gift! that jersey costs a whooping $128! haha. mr fong is so touched la.

mr fong with some of the class people.

ally with me outside swensens!

the class girls!

jannah is also always ready for a shot. haha.

the best friends!

mr fong with ally & me!

earthquake me, jannah, xiaowei, mingxian, wengsan & mr fong shared. haha. yums! i still love the coffee ice cream.

didnt manage the take the whole class photo. jannah & xiaowei, send me the photos too! HAHA.
anyway, 17 turned up. so proud of them! haha. first successful class outing. dinner was good, company was the best. haha. i absolutely love the class! we should have this every week. haha.

today was a bad day. went for a stupid haircut at tm and it really sucks. my fringe is so short and even more annoying than before. hate it. im dreading to leave the house.

i'm sulking.

photos from last sunday.

2007-07-12T20:34:00.000+08:00

shit. embarrassing. princess said he saw me at the 31 bus stop near school. i didnt believe him so i asked him what was i wearing. then i realised, oh right. obviously sch uniform. HAHA. yes la, its a dumbass question.

last weekend was enjoyable! saturday was shopping day, bought quite a bit from zara and mango. a red dress, orange top, blue jacket, orange overalls & a green top! happiness!
sunday was great too. met up with jiawei and ernest finally. bought my num bag! :D rented a room at cine again and watched harry potter and the globet of fire. EH! please dont say i look like cho chang! miss the guys! took very few photos. shall upload soon. and now im the odd one out, the one without the other half. oh well!

the school week is passing real fast. realised i'm losing danny faster than before. well, happy for my best friend so i guess it's alright. ally bought us twins' shirts that say, i'm the evil twin! super cute, love you ally! haha. then we started arguing whether they were blue or green. oh and today's gp lesson was super hilarious. the essay question ended with a DYA which obviously stood for Do You Agree. but danny asked me, issit Do Your Answers?! HAHA. it was super funny. i swear the mucus must have clogged up her brains. haha. ohh. and the weird conversations in gp. really annoying.
i have been going home pretty early the past few days, feeling pretty moody. except for yesterday. went to watch harry with jannah and kams. sorry to be the lightbulb. had to go if not both wont go. haha. we kinda were extremely disappointed. barely any actions, not much of the others and alot on that stupid pink woman from the ministry of magic. annoying i tell you. they skimmed thru the book and it was getting a tad bit boring. oh well. i shall look forward to the book then! thank goodness my brother ordered.

class outing tmr. we're gonna celebrate mr fong's birthday! thats probably the reason why so many are coming. yup yup. gonna take lots of photos tmr! i love the class anyway. haha. they're such an awesome bunch. apart from the stupid random scandals about me and him. TSK! anyway. i forgot to do mr fong's card. crap. shall go off to do so now!

GOODNIGHT TO ALL!

hollerback.
tom, OOHH! you know jiawei? haha. how?

Your beautiful like the colours of the rainbow
Warm heated like the rays of the sun on summer days
All i got to do is look into your eyes to lose myself

2007-07-06T00:14:00.000+08:00

YAY TO THE WORLD.

blocktest2 is over, having mixed feelings. not really relieved cause i practically screwed up everything cause i was too messed up and forgot the more important formulaes, but yet, happy its all over.
ohya. i was having cramps from the starting of this week, real bad ones. made me lose my appetite since last night. annoying shit. stupid cramps are making me moody.

since im feeling moody, i shall start whining a little. MY STUPID GRAPHIC CALCULATOR FAILED ON ME ON THE NIGHT BEFORE MY MATHS PAPER! tried changing the batt but it didnt work. got all worried and started asking everyone if they had extra, obviously not. haha. asked ben, my rj neighbour but he had paper the next day too, gabby was being nice by actually thinking of coming down early the next morning just to lend me his. BUT! weng san gave me a brilliant idea. to ask mr tan. hahaha. so yea. survived that. my brother brought the gc to get it repaired but guess what. something abt the motherboard being spoilt and cannot be repaired. so yea. i have to get a new one. and it costs a whooping $172! and thats popular's special price, so it claims on the poster. and the original price was $175. so much for being special. i so dont feel good wasting my parents' cash. sighs. im extremely annoyed.

went out with the sisters today, walked a bit at raffles, met zheng tang who was queuing up for donuts. ehhh. when is anyone gonna buy donuts from there for me?! i've never tried it before. how tragic. so anyway, outline of today's outing. asian kitchen at citylink, window-shopping at marina square then renting room at the top level of cine. yup, we went to 'kai fang'! sounds totally odd but what the heck. it was damn fun. HAHA. we watched silent hill, screamed ourselves silly and laughed at ourselves getting freaked out. the annoying jap songs, and the other random pop songs playing outside the room was very distracting too. haha. andd. when the show was left with like 10 more mins, the screen went blank. the stupid owners are so dumb la. its not like we wont pay for the overtime booking of the room when we return the remote control and dvd. they just had to switch it off at the most exciting part, we were so pissed la. so joc and mindy went out to extend the booking and when they came back, the tv still couldnt be switched on, so we entertained ourselves by taking photos while waiting. then this guy came and we asked him why the tv doesnt work. THENN! mindy realises, they paid for the overtime of another room. dumb moment of the day. HAHAHA. yup, so we finished the show and went to taka for dinner. by that time, only eunice, joc, mindy and i were left. haha. brought them to super nice fish and chips at taka. then we window-shopped some more and finally left. reached home at like ten plus.

BUT on the bright side, im skipping maths lecture and college day tmr to stay home and watch dvds since then again. cause my parents are worried about my bad cramps.
and the weekends seem less gloomy.
saturday, im going shopping with my mama and enjoying the GSS and not enjoying the gst rise. haha. but at least, shopping with her means i'll have cash to spend!
sunday, i'm meeting up with the lollipops and i'll get my black num bag with orange straps. YAYNESS! been thinking about it since the hols. haha. ally, ernest and gar meng have heard me debate over buying it so many times. HAHAHA. so anyway, yes, i miss jiawei & ernest a whole load. haha. LOVE THEM!

random thoughts,
weng san is damn fun to bitch with. haha.
jocelyn makes weird noises. hahaha.
mindy makes horror movies funny. remember the potential mtv videos in silent hill! HAHA. and i enjoy going church with her. (:
i still wanna get a kitten and name it coffee! was thinking of getting it for my birthday, BUT! i wont have time to train it and all i guess since theres prelims and As. so i guess after the As lo. haha. one that looks something like this,

SO CUTE PLEASE!

hollerbacks.
princess, im not a scary reputation spoiling monster, you ass! HAHAHA. i say nice things about you all the time can. hahaha.
alison, HELLO! haha. lets go shopping soon! (:
ziqing, heyy girlfriend! i miss you lots! and LOVES TO YOU!
jiawei, ohmy. you like gar meng's sense of humour. HAHA. see you on sunday! loves!
tom, haha okayy. so you linked from whose blog to mine?
pamela, hey girl! haha. you're sweet. haha. stay pretty too! (:
ernest, why are you drunk? haha. but i love you too! and see you on sunday too!
handsome/joshua, CHANGE YOUR TAG NAME CAN! hahaha. tsk. anyway, i love my new blogskin too! hahaha. hmmm. alright. study, shop and catch up real soon, my extra extra good friend! haha.

2007-06-23T15:49:00.000+08:00

YAYYYY!

i finished ionic & chem equilibrium early early this morning from 1-5am. not bad right. hahaha. i actually stayed up, dilligently doing chem! woohoo! i felt super energetic doing work. hmmm. took like a 5 minute break to cut kiwi for myself. HAHA. then i woke up at like 1pm and did chem kinetics! now, i'm off to meet my friend to study & gossip! i'm running late. and yes gar meng, i'm a gossip queen! haha.

and i suddenly thought of the two super lame jokes gar meng told me yesterday.
question: how do you live forever?
answer: go to the living room. -.-

another one.
a teacher asked his student who hated history lessons: why do you dislike history so much?
student: cause there is no future in it. -.-

okay. dont roll your eyes at me. its gar meng. HAHA. i just stared at him when he told me. it's so freaking ass cold.

hollerback!
princess, EHHH! go change your name and move to another country then! haha. dont forget to grow a moustache and shave it off. thats what you told me. HAHA. you're such a retard!

2007-06-23T01:02:00.001+08:00

funniest thing ernest or gar meng said today was, "OHMYBITCH!"

stupid shits.
okayy. my favourite phrase these few days, you can ask princess, i say it all the time to him.
so yeaaa. today i went to meet ally, ernest & gar meng to study. but first, cause i couldnt print some chem stuffs at home, we went searching at lucky plaza for a printing shop.

the price of printing a normal black & white word document on 1 normal piece of paper is A FREAKING ONE BUCK! and i have like 50++ pages. & coloured will cost two bucks! i wanted to scream at the lady. the shop is cheating people of their $$.

so anyway. i had only a bit of maths to do cause i forgot to bring my other books. so annoyed. and ernest & gar meng kept talking & talking. sorry ally! hope it wasn't that awkward for you! today was a bad going out day somehow. tsk. took a super long bus ride home. & ghost whispherer is back on ch 5! okay.
i just told princess that i miss dean and sam from supernatural and he said, "who that, who those?" HAHAHAHAHA. super retarded please.

okay. i'm still sort of in a 426*@^#*(%^*&amp;%)@&$)&^*&)&)345896 mood. so yea. i shall return back to my mugging till 4am.

GOODNIGHT LOVES!

hollerbacks!
jiawei, no la! you're still hot blurred or not blurred! and i missed you today! & you forgot to call me back. tsk.
tom, err. do i know you? hello anyway! haha. well, a bit i guess. haha.

you left me feeling high & dry,
what we had was beautiful,
but its time to say goodbye,
goodbye.

2007-06-22T02:26:00.000+08:00

i've been having weird sleeping habits.
i cant sleep till like 4am. & when i stay at home to study, i'll wake up at like noon. & when i meet ally & weng san to study, i wake up at 9 instead of 830 because of all the snoozing & i end up being late. i so have to adjust somehow to suit the normal school day 510 waking up timing. if not, i'm doomed. BUT! i have till tues. cause monday theres econs & i take geog! BUT AGAIN! geog students finishes bt2 one day later than econs students. damnnn.

tsk.

i'm getting into a &^%^$(&%$(^%)*^(*^^$^ mood.

2007-06-21T23:42:00.000+08:00

last friday i was feeling sad. so i asked the other 2 lollys/lollies to visit me on saturday. and they did! haha. brought 2 dvds. dreamgirls and that stupid retarded racing show starring will ferrell. and jiawei started doing the stupid dreamgirls dance. super retarded. we watched jacky wu's variety shows till super late too. haha. they're super retarded and funny. we chatted till like 5am i think. talking about random retarded stuffs. but yea, it was a good chat. the next day, i went over to jiawei's place first to wait for him to bathe finish then go over to ernest's place. ohmy. my first time at ang mo kio, so many cockroaches. hahaha. but yea. we started exploring ernest's room and started talking about random stuffs. haha. then we left for stjames. took so many photos on the mrt. indian men were staring. so funny! anyway, stjames was okay la. i think i still prefer zouk somehow. ernest got super high and wild and he hugged me and told me he loved me. how sweet. HAHA. ernest, i love you too la!

our retarded customised shirts! read on.

ehh. the two shots i took of them were nice right?

who took this? tsk. i look super retarded i know.

the back logo of the shirts are so nice can!

close up!

jiawei trying to hog the camera. tsk.

in the club.

messy hair i know!

jiawei looks sleepy.

just super blur.

left the club at about 430am. got to know jesse, this super super nice air steward. he treated us to so many vodka shots, taxi fares and breakfast. then we went back to ernest's place to sleep. haha. and i got up in time to meet wengsan and ally for studying at coffeebean! was super sleepy though. haha.

anyway. starworld keeps playing love today by mika. listening to it makes me think of jiawei and ernest. HAHA. cause that day we were singing super loudly along the void deck.

random thought. i want to get a tattoo next time at miami ink next time. been watching way too much miami ink. (:

hollerbacks!

handsome, joshua. right. HAHAHA. you're so thick-skinned! oh well. we havent studied together for a long time. haha. what have you been doing? tsk tsk.

jiawei, yes. you're always late. we know. hahaha. but i still love you. and yup! he's super hot.

gar, please. you obviously didnt. roll eyes.

welsonn, hey hey hey! stop smoking! haha.

bk, you airhead! nowhere. i've been studying okay. hahaha. i miss eating at ichiban with you!

2007-06-16T01:02:00.000+08:00

i suddenly thought of all the sunflowers/roses i have received before. how each stalk/bouquet has its significance.
i'm emo-ing now. i miss everyone & everything.
i feel like a stupid shit now. ):
i just want to curl up and cry.

2007-06-13T22:53:00.000+08:00

YAYNESS! ernest was slightly late as usual, but jiawei. well. he didnt even turn up in the end. hmmm. we walked to lido for macs breakfast then i had my usual browsing at borders. HAHA. then we went to the starbucks next to wheelock. quiet and nice place. we saw a super hot model-looking ang moh. and i took a photo! hahaha. feeling quite high.

hmmm. then someone dropped by! GAR MENG! made alot of noise, played around with my phone, took photos, talk rubbish, and i doodled all over his book! hmmm. then hafiz dropped by too, cause he was having lunch with gar meng. talked more rubbish.

i so had to take a photo of his book that he scribbled inside of. so vuglar please. TSK!

then we were bored so we walked to far east to see whether our customised shirts were ready but they were not. so then, we walked to paragon. where we went to starbucks again. this time, we studied a bit and we got bored again. hahaha. then we started having a heart-to-heart talk. talked for ages about everything. felt somehow better about getting everything off my chest. ernest, you're an amazing friend. i totally love you! and i doodled all over his book as well. :D and i like his num bag! i wanna get a black and orange version. but its like $129.90. so expensive!

then we got bored of sitting at starbucks so we walked to heerens to see the nice num bag then walk back and strolled around paragon. and we saw this. HUH! why is crumple selling 'the dreadful embarrassment bag'?! super weird. didnt know they have names for their bags. haha.

anyway. ernest left at 730 and i waited pathetically outside lawrys for my family for like half an hour. which is when jiawei called to say he woke up late and was gonna take a cab. well, its kinda too late. sorry jiawei. so yup. lawrys was an eye opening. the famous tossing salad was yummy and the wine was good. the steak was still the best. OHMY! hahaha. i love lawrys. but well, they're so smart at sucking up our money. our bill came up to a whooping $570.10. my eyes almost popped out. the waitress asked, would you like some water, sparkling or still? so i said still lo. i thought it was free. but no! its $6.50 for a bottle of water. and we ordered two. OHMY. who charges $6.50 for water?! and the sides. cause while they were cutting up the steak, they asked what sides would we like. so we ordered, and we had no idea it was super ex too! HAHAHA. anyway, their cream corn tasted fabulous! love it. oh anyway. i'm so dumb please. i thought lawrys was famous for their ribs! you know, like kenny rogers ribs. but yea. prime rib isnt really ribs, its steak. im so blur please. and the cheesecake rocked. but spinelli's blueberry cheesecake still wins!

but anyway, it was some quality time we spent as a family, laughing and talking away. haha. my brother kept laughing at everything i was saying. ehh. am i that comical. TSK! anyway. i'm looking forward to meeting the sisters tomorrow! haven't seen them in ages. and we're sending the juniors off! and celebrating mindy's birthday! LOVES TO ALL!

2007-06-12T22:55:00.000+08:00

HEY ALL! stupid wireless was screwed up yesterday. anyway. did i mention,
I AM UNGROUNDED! haha. despite the fact that i have to ask my dad whenever i wanna go out now and tell him the time i'll be home. haha. but its okay. i get to go out at least.

so anyway. monday's study date with ally, ruth and joshua. haha. we found a perfect place to study behind borders. with nice cushions and square tables, coffee bean. but i still love coffee fraps from starbucks! hmmm. joshua is a crazy thing. he took photo with my phone of an ang moh kid who was topless in wheelock. HAHA. and joshua was complaining about the money i spent on stuffs from paperchase. and my obsession with stuffs from there. they're just beautiful and cute. anyway. i got a new journal. :D

okay. it looks like a whole pile of notebooks now. but wait.

this is how it really looks. haha. so stylish right. joshua picked it out for me! haha.

okay. so i'm always the early one except the times when i meet weng san. HAHA. so yea. joshua was slightly late and ally and ruth were very late. but nevermind. see my monkey pencil case?! its super cute. from paperchase too. and the multi colour notebook as well. its a present for someone. HAHA. and right in the middle, sunrise from coffee bean. i still prefer coffee frap anytime. i'm a loyal fan of starbucks! :D

then we decided to have lunch at the soup spoon. so we dragged our asses down to paragon. super far from wheelock okay. haha. AND! i drank pumpkin soup. darn. still prefer the mushroon one. its the best with lots and lots of mushrooms!

so then. joshua left to meet another friend. OHYA! that crazy thing walked into addidas with that 'one swoosh is better than 3 __' shirt. totally on purpose. and the salesgirl was staring at us. HAHA.

ally and ruth. they're studying so much can. tsk. hahaha. we went to paragon's starbuck to continue our studies. haha.

ohh. the super yummy and pretty cakes on display at some shop next to starbuckes. yums.

look who dropped by while i was studying! ERNEST. without his braces! and he was supposed to meet jiawei at 3. but jiawei came at like 6. so yea. he sat with us for quite a while. haha. yup. the lollipops made up. cant stay angry with each other for more than a day. haha. hmmm. oh ya.
ansley: i'm hungry.
ernest: they played 'unfaithful' last night you know! so nice.
totally no link please. HAHA. that's us. we always sidetrack during conversations.
yup! ernest went stjames on sunday night! i'm super jealous. he said it was super fun and he drank lots without paying a single buck. cause he knew ppl there. so we're planning to go this weekend again! hopefully, i wont get grounded again! HAHA.

so yup. today i was too lazy to go out plus i was having a headache so i stayed at home to study. haha. tmr i'm studying with the lollipops! yup yup. gonna take lots of photos again! haha. then i'm going for dinner at lawry's with the family. just nice at paragon too!

hollerbacks!
NEZZ, hey girl! haha. sorry abt monday. couldnt join you. anyway. hope you bought everything you needed to. haha. love you lots! :D
ernest, i totally argue. hahaha. but spare his hair la. he's been eating so much instant noodles since the day i met him. haha. imagine the amt of hair dropped. see you tmr! LOVES!
alison, no problem! i hope you loved the butterfly earrings i got for you! haha. i remembered that you loved butterflies. see you real soon for more studying! loves!

daylight on my shoulder
makes me feel alive
you kept me standing in your shadow
and it’s a cold cold place to hide

2007-06-11T00:19:00.000+08:00

today is mom's birthday. haha. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY! hope you'll age gracefully. haha. :D
we celebrated at fish and co at the airport. nice place. haha. and my family took many photos with my phone! hahah. we hardly take photos so yea.

super huge freeze me and my bro shared. we ordered sharkie freeze but i think they gave us some tropical thingy cause it tasted like a whole load of pineapples. but nice nice!

me and my bro! we look totally different i know. and this is like one of the extremely few times we take photos together!

me and my dad. and he's a handsome guy okay. and i love him even though he grounded me. haha.

birthday woman! hahaha. she's super happy today la. smile and hog the camera. loves!

ehhh. her young colleagues at rp are super nice to her. they gave her a surprise dinner party and even secretly called me earlier to ask for her favourite flowers. thank goodness i remember that she loved sunflowers like me. haha. and they made a super special bday card for her. cant describe. its just eleborate and super thoughtful. haha.

so anyway. i went shopping with her, my aunt and my grandma for a while. ohmygoodness. being in a car with 3 women, is horrible. they were like talking extremely loudly, arguing over which road to turn by, where to park car, how to park the car and everything. i was practically dying. but nevermind. haha. they're super funny though.

i went to meet jiawei and ernest after that at about 5 plus for dinner. dropped by borders for a quick glance for the super cute ranges by paperchase. love it. they sell the coolest stuffs. i sound like a nerd to be shopping at borders, but you got to check it out. bought a green monkey metal pencilcase. HAHA. gonna go back tmr to check out more stuffs! cause the two dudes were chasing me. haha. we went sakae for dinner! didnt eat much this time and we still gossiped, laughed, unglamed ourselves and had a great time. then we went to pull and bear to get black tees to customise. super retarded stuffs but yea. they're sending the tees tmr for designing. OHYA! they were telling me about this old hong kong man who owns the printing on tees shop at far east. and he talks with a super super super super strong hong kong accent. the kind ppl always mimick and laugh about. and his name is cheko! HAHAHA. sounds like chekopeh can?! yea. i heard his name when they called him to check what time he was closing. he's super hilarious. oh and! jiawei and i tried to ignore each other today while we were out. haha. first, i dropped my phone. then jiawei dropped his aviators. then we waited for ernest to drop something. HAHA. but anyway. i guess we are just not meant to ignore each other. see! its a sign! all three of us are best friends for life! HAHA.

and ernest took a photo of my phone screen. cause you know sony erisson has this note function that can be put infront of your wallpaper. and i had like, 'MUST MUG SUPER HARD! DONT WATCH TV, JUST MUG!' on it. and ernest found it hilarious. so yea. haha. heyy! i was just trying to motivate myself okay. haha. it worked for the first two days but not the next two. haha. oh that reminds me. i also put 'ted baker's dressing rooms' cause i remembered about them last night at like 3am. they're super super cool. they have like different leather/animal skin chairs in every dressing room. they have ultra cool mirrors. i so have to go check it out at vivo again. must try and sneak photos. haha. meantime, you guys should go check it out too! OH AND. a branch is opening at taka! we saw the sign today. haha. the stuffs in there are pricey, but not bad la. ernest got sneakers from there. jiawei and i thought it was ted barker. then ernest checked his shoes for the right name. HAHA.

so anyway. the day didnt go so well cause the lollipops didnt part on good terms. sighs. first time can. oh well. i'm sorry. my fault i was grounded. if not we'll probably be at stjames having the time of our lives instead of ernest being unhappy now. oh well. still love you boys! ohh. i realised we didnt take photo with jiawei. oh well.

ernest with jiawei's aviators. not that bad looking la ernest!

OOHH AND! GOOD NEW PEOPLE! I THINK I'M UNGROUNDED!
i msged my daddy on the way home to ask if i can study out tmr. and he replied, ok. YAY TO THE WORLD! i'm free! hahaha. so i'm going to study with ally, joshua and whoever that comes down tmr at paragon starbucks! that's why i'm quite high now. haha. i'm such a retard i know. but YAYYY! :D yeaa. after staying at home for four days, i got cranky and annoyed and restless. hahaha. i had super weird sleeping habits. couldn't sleep till like 3 or 4am and i would wake up at like 12 noon. haha. BUT. at least i made a new friend randomly on msn. its super weird la. both didnt add each other but we just appeared on each other's msn. so yea. my new friend is super nice! see, i'm friendly okay. :D okay! sorry for the lengthy entry. haha. have lots to blog about today. haha.

hollerbacks!
gar meng, see! i'm not that bad. i gave you an exclamation mark too! haha. happy? stop eating instand noodles la.
melvin, yup yup! haha. hello! hope you're doing fine! :D

after all this time
i never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it

2007-06-09T01:18:00.000+08:00

happy birthday ally!
yup. you're super fun to study/bitch/shop with! haha. thanks for being an amazing friend/classmate/bandmate. i'll call you as soon as i get ungrounded. haha. i kept telling you that but i really have no idea when that is. oh well. LOVES TO YOU! :D

i'm so bored that i started painting my toenails red. and got nail polish all over my fingers. and its super hard to wash it off. oh well.
and YAY! jiawei is thinking of visiting me tomorrow! and save me from my misery. yes yes. jarrod might drive him over with ernest too cause hes going to sign up for driving lessons tomorrow! i have faith in you, this time you will pass! haha.

gar meng. as a friend, i'm worried about you. HAHA. stop eating instant noodles if not your hair will all really fall out. then you'll be botak. that's not a nice thought. haha. so stop!

hollerbacks:
ernest, heyy! im sorry i cant go DXO with you. and i doubt i can go stjames too. oh well. haha. i'll see you when i get ungrounded? loves anyway!
vanessa, YAY! i love mika too! lollipop is a super cute song too. and happy ending is a sadder one but still nice. anyway. i miss you! loves!
princess, stop being annoying! hahaha. you're just jealous he can sing and you cant. haha. but thanks for tagging! (: oh and. welcome back to the present? HUH?

2007-06-08T20:13:00.000+08:00

my day hasn't got any better. i overslept and missed the lunch appointment with my parents. so that means i didn't get to leave the house today. and i've been trying to study the whole day. but i'm getting extremely restless. 3 days of grounding and i'm getting extremely annoyed. sighs.

my mood:

hollerbacks:
margaret, haha. yup. its june now! i know. when i tell others my blog is revived, they're like 'its no longer nov 13?!' HAHA. yup. i miss you super loads too! and yes. your blog rocks like rocks. so does mine. LOVES! :D
becky, ohmy! haha. you read my blog! i didnt know. but thank you! haha. yea, i miss seeing you around too! i miss you girl. hmmm. yup. i will study hard. you too! LOVES!

this thing called love i just can't handle it
this thing called love i must get round to it
i ain't ready
crazy little thing called love

2007-06-08T00:30:00.000+08:00

ohmy. GOOD NEWS.
no la, i'm not ungrounded. but my dad was quite sweet today. he bought an expensive slice of cheesecake just for me! haha. and my mama and brother thinks he's trying to make up to me. :D i'm not that angry with him la. but he still hasn't unground me. DAMN! but at least things seem better than yesterday. ohh. i can go out on sunday, that's only because it's my mama's birthday and i have to accompany her out shopping.

the moment i get ungrounded, i'm going to buy coffee frap from starbucks, meet alison to give her her present and meet someone to drink soup at the soup spoon & chit chat. I CANT WAIT FOR MY GROUNDING TO BE OVER!

damn random, damn sudden. my dad just walked in and rubbed my hair and asked me to sleep. HAHA. okay. i'm high from staying at home for the past 2 days and more to come.

hollerback:
jiawei, i wish. haha. oh well. even if i get ungrounded by sunday, doubt i can go stjames. sorry. haha. i miss you guys like hell. will meet up once i get ungrounded! LOVES!

if you can't wake up in the morning
cause your bed lies vacant at night
if you're lost, hurt, tired or lonely
can't control it, try as you might
may you find that love that won't leave you
may you find it by the end of the day
you won't be lost, hurt, tired and lonely
something beautiful will come your way

2007-06-06T22:48:00.000+08:00

i'm grounded for the first time in my life.
how ultimately pathetic, all because i came home after midnight last night. i guess my dad was in a bad mood cause usually he doesn't say anything. oh well. i got really pissed and upset with him but after a while, i couldn't really be bothered anymore. yup. i spent my first day of being grounded by waking up super damn late and studying throughout the whole day. i can't believe i wasn't even tempted to turn on the tv to watch travel&living or mtv. oh right. the end of my grounding is when my dad feels like ending it. so yea. i have no freaking idea when it'll end. meantime, i'm ignoring him like a complete spoilt brat. oh well, i know i'm spoilt.

& the whole day i was craving for coffee frap from starbucks and soup from the soup spoon. damn.

oh and i was looking forward to celebrating ally's birthday but i apparently doubt i can. there goes our plans, a farewell party on sat which i might not be able to attend (sorry alec!) and also, ST JAMES on sunday. i was so looking forward to going to stjames.

oh and. i almost forgot!

TWE BAND DINNER 2007- The Red Carpet!

my year's band dinner was at school and right outside the gym where it was HOT! and we received wooden forks and spoons from our juniors. but i still loved it for my juniors' sincerity and it was cute too la. haha. last year it was held at the amara hotel and this year the changi village hotel. well, changi village hotel looks super pretty inside! shocking i know. haha. but amara's food still wins, just remembering the choco cake last year. haha. sadly, guangrong wasnt here this year to hog the food table. haha. hmm. last yr they gave out medals and this year they gave out those glass medals like star awards. HAHA. i just remembered zat singing the star awards song at the hotel on monday. hmmm. oh well. i miss twe like hell. damn. i finally caught up with my batchmates, seniors and juniors. they're so much fun. haha. sat next to jessica and xinling at the table and it reminded me of our class, 4v. xinling even asked, do you still msg all the time in class? HAHA. she knows me really well. miss my twe life. they're so right. you can take me out of the band, but you can never take the bandmember out of me. haha. that was a nice and very true quote. LOVE TWE! i'll upload photos another time.

i'm addicted to mika's songs now. nothing beats a guy who can sing even higher than me. oh and there's something weird with the red jumpsuit apparatus's your guradian angel. there's a minute of silence right after the song ends. haha. joshua and i are weirded out by it. oh well. back to my studying and hoping for this silly grounding to end.

hollerbacks:
ernest&jiawei: haha. there! i gave both of you two exclaimation marks. and i'm so sorry i'm highly unlikely to be able to go to stjames this weekend! saddening i know. ):
garmeng: why not? haha. dont be so mean to everyone!
kams: yup! haha. i wonder if ming xian kept that warped photo. haha.

when i see your smile
tears run down my face i can't replace
and now that i'm strong i have figured out
how this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
and i know i'll find deep inside me i can be the one

2007-06-03T23:08:00.000+08:00

i went shopping with my mama and aunt at parkway today. YAYNESS. bought the colourful striped dress from topshop, huge sunglasses and shorts.

then i went to meet ernest and jiawei for dinner at marina. jiawei was on time for the first time! amazing i tell you. haha. we ate at kenny rogers, our favourite place. and we started talking about ns and jiawei being a pilot. hahaha. ernest and i will so not ride the plane he's flying. yes, but i cant wait till both of them get their driving licences! then i'll get to be sent home everytime! yup. nothing beats sitting in a nice car home. reminds me of alec's bmw. i love sitting in it, especially at night and listening to michael buble. haha.

oh and jiawei bought aviators from river island! love that place, the stuffs are super cool. haha.

bimbotic things happened today and last week. duh. it always does when we three are together.

let's start with mine.

scene one.

jiawei: i got new shoes! (they are acsics ones)

ansley: ohmygod! they're reebok! (yeaa. i have no idea how i mistook acsics for reebok. totally embarrassing. they kept laughing at me la)

scene two.

ernest was showing us his superman jeans.

ansley: oh wow! that's spiderman!

ernest&jiawei: OHMYGOD! what the heck.

we were walking at the lime flea market and we spotted superheroes rings.

ansley: look! that's a spiderman ring! (pointing at a superman ring)

ernest&jiawei: ANSLEY! -.-

scene three. (ernest's)

jiawei was saying something about old changi hospital.

ernest: WHAT?! old chang kee hospital?!

jiawei&ansley: -.-

scene four. (jiawei's)

ernest: oh look! (hugo) boss got sale!

ansley was saying something about dance.

jiawei: huh what? buns got sale?!

ernest&ansley: -.-

scene five.

ansley: do you guys know what HMV stands for?

jiawei: his mother's voice?

jiawei: OOHH I KNOW. his mother's vagina.

ernest&ansley: ewww. -.-

so anyway. we went to heerens so i could change the size of my havaianas cause they were wayy too big. now my size 5 fits perfectly! :D and yeaa. i was barefooted, sitting on the bench with jiawei while ernest went to help me change. haha. so embarrassing la. then we went to taka's coffee club for fresh fruits fondue! haha. niceee. but yea. we'll go the haagen daz one next time.

twe band dinner tomorrow! i'm looking forward for it. haha. i miss twe people like mad.

to think i might not see those eyes

makes it so hard not to cry

and as we say our long goodbye

i nearly do

2007-06-03T02:08:00.000+08:00

SURPRISE!

after refraining myself from blogging, i'm back here again. haha. spent the whole night doing the new blogskin and uploading all the recent photos.

well, alot has happened this few months, what i could remember of it was,
one. sajc concert band got GOLD WITH HONOURS! haha. that's like wayy old news already.
two. i have sort of graduated from the band but i still feel very much attached to it that's why i'm missing the whole band so much now, esp my saxtion!
three. we also have a concert, bach to the beat, held at singapore conference hall which was super entertaining. haha.
four. i'm loving my class more and more each day. they're an awesome and fun bunch of people to hang out with.
five. danny has found her loved one. HAHA!
six. i started buying alot of red bags this year.
seven. i'm close to obsessed with spongebob.
eight. i'm having holidays now and i've met up with the lollipops, celebrated ernest's birthday, went clubbing, met up with alec, met up with princess, met up with christopher & did quite alot of shopping! its the Great Singapore Sale you know. haha.
nine. i've studied with my class people at macs or paragon's starbucks the last week. at least we tried to.
ten. i just had service learning at yishun primary where my class held a games day and my green group won! haha. okayy. the red group were the champs too. red&green, what a coincidence. haha.
eleven. i've lost someone.
hmmm. i just i'm trying to erase that name from my mind and i just dont want to hear it cause i dont want to remember too much that has happened. oh well.

okay. more shopping to be done soon! and yes i know, studying too. haha.

oh ya. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MINGXIAN!

dont we all love warped photos?

2006-11-13T20:01:00.000+08:00

i shall stop lying to myself and forcing myself to believe in something that was never there.

okayy. busy weekend. haha. friday i went to meet jiawei, fye, ernest and valentino for nyp concert. yeaaa. i shall not really eleborate on the band, cause yea. nothing much to say please. anyway, i loved the strings though and izyan! their nyp idol, shes amazing. so anyway, we left halfway and ate at swensens at ps. fye is super nice! haha. he totally rocks. :D

anyway. we watched final call at 1150pm. psychos i know. haha. but it was quite funny at some parts la. but i still dont get the red candy popping out of the mouth. haha. stayed over at jiawei's anyway. and yeaa. weird things were happening around me. oh well.

saturday, pissing off day. shall not eleborate.
all i have to say is, where is the trust.

sunday, went aaron li's church with mych and fungyin. whoops, i was super late. sorry la. but yea. his church is homely, pretty nice. BUT! we went for chinese service. oh my marder please. i couldnt really sing the songs in chinese. hahaha. but the pastor was funny. went bugis after that and hung out and yakked so much. then we went to meet the rest of the sisterhood at siglap then bought snacks and went to yi mei's house for our sleepover. haha.

we started our first show at like 1 plus am la. and throughout the three shows we watched, only yi mei and i stayed awake the entire way. tsk tsk. jocelyn ah. she only watched two. anyway. we watched hard candy. sounds like some porn right? HAHAHA. its not. its just some stupid sadistic show where the girl is like psychotic. she faked a castration and they showed us the balls. we thought we were gonna puke please. haha. then we watched london vodoo, still rather traumatising. haha. then finally, we decided to watch something happier. THAT THING YOU DO. the show is not bad, but the songs are fab. love the wonders. haha. we went up to sleep at 6 am and got up at around noon. stoned a bit and we decided to order kfc and pizza hut delivery. haha. okayy. we ordered a hell load. but the garlic bread from pizza hut isnt that nice anymore. sighs. haha. then we watched THE NOTEBOOK. its super duper uber touching. but yea, steamy too. hahaha. eunice cried at the end la. loved that show the most. haha. then we stoned around somemore and the girls decided to leave so yea. i just stayed back a while more to write some stuffs. and im finally back home to grab more clothes and yup. im going back to her place. haha.

OH YEA. steven strait, the guy from the convenant is damn hot. (:

photos at vivo on last monday.

love that guy. (:

jiawei say i look very happy here.

i want one of these in my house next time. hahaha.

THE LOLLIPOPS! :D

where did i go wrong
i lost a friend
somewhere along in the bitterness
and i would have stayed up with you all night
had I known how to save a life

2006-11-02T11:01:00.000+08:00

woke up this morning cause my maid came running into my room asking me to get up.
the aircon men are here. i thought what happened.
it was 10 am, pretty late.
BUT i was up all night till like 3 cause i was feeling paranoid. i hate living in a big house sometimes cause theres all these weird sounds. and after watching the grudge 2 with mych, yeaa, im very paranoid. oh yea. the grudge 2 is scary shit. haha. obviously, i screamed watching the trailers. hahaha. but got some scenes super funny. haha.

OOOHHH. the aircon repair guy got a michael learns to rock ringtone. nice. haha. but i cant possibly go up to him and ask him to send it to me.

oh well. nevermind. im off to study for my chinese as tml. dont really know how to study for it, but what the hell. i'll manage. wish me luck. :D

OHHH! thank you xiaowei for that super duper uber cute milkbottle with absolutely beautiful baby shells in them. thanks so much for everything. including this.

it makes me smile just looking at it.

he walks on airs when he talks about you.
im extremely messed up right now.

everything is f'ed up straight from the heart
tell me what do you do,
when it all falls apart
cause i can't turn to you when it all falls apart

2006-10-31T22:03:00.000+08:00

IM MESSED UP.
its so ironic how my girls can tell me to just let go and i just thought maybe i could try changing things and perhaps, things might work out.
but when i finally feel like its time to let go, another friend tells me not to.

danny, you're right. i made a wrong decision.
i feel like a stupid fool. what the hell, i am a stupid fool.
i guess this is how things will end up when you lost it. all the feelings.
and i bet yi mei is gonna kill me if she reads this, i dont know why but i was actually thinking of slitting my wrist.
i so cant handle all these now.

ansley, please, get a grip of yourself.

2006-10-30T21:28:00.000+08:00

met mych for lunch at pp today.
hahaha. yes i know, temasek people talk very fast. haha.
and we talked a whole load.
anyway, op dry run two was officially a failure.
firstly, we were more nervous than the first one. NO IDEA WHY.
secondly, it was taking so bloody long and we were all restless.
thirdly, desmond wasnt here again. ):

nevermind. spent the whole 3 hours gossiping with joshua.
okay. not only gossiping, but also talking about meaningful stuffs okay.
i still need time to think about it man.

SORRY MYCH! for making you wait 3 hours for me. hahahaha.
we went the cathay after that, she bought her red and white num slippers like mine!
YAY! now we can exchange and we will look like christmas trees, cause mine's green and white. anyway. i just realised the road outside ps is one-way, so yea. haha. we took a bus down to far east. and ate triple C and cheese sausage. thank goodness it didnt squirt right, mych? hahaha. after which, we walked to taka, bought milk tea and lemon tea, then walked to heerens. didnt see the HOT num guy tho, but we saw my friend who had the same bag as us and we ran off. HAHA. dont ask why.

num has some super cute boxers! we like. (:
and thank you mych for spending your evening talking to me. hahaha.
similar situations as always. haha. no wonder we're sisters.

grant my last request,
and just let me hold you.
don't shrug your shoulders,
lay down beside me.
sure i can accept that we're going nowhere,
but one last time let's go there,
lay down beside me.

2006-10-29T22:45:00.000+08:00

i was sick the last few days. used like 8 packets of tissue on wed.
ran in the rain too. but for a good reason of helping my sisters.
stayed home on thurs and did jiawei's present.
stayed home on friday and finished jiawei's present.
and i went to ming xian's house for class gathering in the evening.
reached there at like 7. ming xian actually signed a cheque to pay for everything and i heard it costed like 20 per person. OH MY MARDER. thats a whole load of money.
THANK YOU MING XIAN! (:
played a bit of monopoly, cards and gossiped alot.
oh and of course, took alot of photos.
BUT. i cant upload them yet, cause i cant find the cables.

anyway. i met up with jiawei and ernest today! finally.
jiawei was two hours late but its alright. we always forgive you. hahaha.
and your eyes are big okayy. haha. just that mine's bigger. haha.
walked to paragon, drank starbucks and met up with some other guy, cant disclose the name.
we saw THREE hot guys.
one at heerens NUM.
one at paragon toilet.
and another, cant say. too obvious. hahaha.

and i saw something that i shouldnt have on the bus.
major whoops.
and jiawei and i were screaming at the TRAILERS of the grudge 2.
it was just the TRAILERS can.
very embarrassing. haha. but it was scary okayy.
nevertheless, today was damn fun as usual. (:

i'm losing you.
and i'm not happy this way.

why do all good things come to an end
flames to dust
lovers to friends

why is this so true?

random.

i miss my long hair.

2006-10-23T21:50:00.000+08:00

i wish troubles melt like lemon drops.
i wish i could be there for my bestfriend when he was down for that 2 weeks.
i wish i didnt have to go through all that.
i wish i was smarter.
i wish i was happier.

went for pw meeting at pp macs. spent like 4 hrs there doing nothing much. haha.
met andrew tau after that. walked arnd bitching and bickering.
went sakae for buffet. and dessert at coffee club.
hes damn kuku, but damn nice too. hahaha.
I ENJOYED TODAY! thanks for all the tuition anyway. next time, neos. hahaha.
and please. i dont want a jar 3/4 filled with sand from thailand. HAHA. :D

i sent ruth a happy birthday msg today.
and then she replies saying thanks, but her birthday is on the 29.
JACKED. hahahaha.

CLASS BBQ ON FRIDAY!
so exciting. hahaha. at ming xian's house.
finally a proper class gathering. can't wait.
missed out on one yesterday at kevin's house.
all the curries, cool projector and screen and soccer match with the guys.
as much as i hate the guys always calling us girls guys, BUT.
i think i will miss the rubbish and fun with the entire class.

i miss ernest and jiawei.
wonder how they're doing.
i miss my bestfriend.
i wonder how he's doing.
i miss ass club 7.
i wonder how they're doing.
i miss matilda suddenly.
i wonder how she's doing.
i miss twe.
i wonder how they're doing.

i'm thinking too much these few days.

but there is not enough time,
and there is no, no song I could sing
and there is no, combination of words I could say
but I will still tell you one thing
we're better together.

2006-10-11T22:18:00.000+08:00

NOT TALKING TO MY BESTFRIEND MAKES ME MOODY.
oh well. im really sorry to hear about it.
i don't know how to help. i'm feeling useless.
i teared hearing about it. silly silly silly.

i don't know anymore.
i'm tired of everything.
yea, mych, you're right.
we should both shut up and not say anything anymore.

my life is so shitty sometimes.
everything wrong has to happen AT THE SAME TIME.
she's upset.
he's also upset.
the other he is also upset.
i'm upset too.
see, life is shitty sometimes.

random.
i just remembered i forgot to go see THE ANSLEY at novena on my birthday.
yea. the condo. ):

2006-10-09T21:10:00.000+08:00

i know i'm lucky to have you.
THANK YOU!
i love the $23 spongebob necklace you bought for me. :D
its freaking cute.
sorry for whacking you so many times today. yea, me and my bad mood. and you were so sweet la. haha. im still puzzled over how did i get you. our relationship has so many complications but you can still be so understanding.
BEAMS. you're the sweetest. (:

i miss my bestfriend.
so terribly.
where did things go wrong?

i'm sorry.
i don't know what can do to make you happy.
it's like. our happiness cannot be built on your misery.
that's why i can't be truly happy knowing you're not fine.
sorry if i made twenty seven not a nice day for you.

random thought.
i love the lollipops. :D

2006-09-20T22:22:00.000+08:00

JIAWEI. today was SUPER DUPER UBER FUN. hahaha. remember. eat one chocolate a day and by the time you finish them, your real present will come. keep guessing what it is. haha. okay. the cheese curry chicken bento was not bad. at that glamer sushi place at wisma. haha. the place is a bit too quiet la. we made so much noise please. hahaha. thats us. yakked so much as usual. took two neoprints! will post when ernest scans it in. haha. saw a dog that looks like a lion. cute i tell you. everyone was taking photos of it. so anyway. talk about birthday boy. YOU LOOK AS GLAM AS EVER. haha. see you after promos okay? i so cant wait. LOVE YOU TO HEAVENS. hope you enjoyed yourself. the lollipops will stay together forever. wish number 19 will come true. dont worry. as for number 16. DUH. im so happy with you two. hahaha. LOVE. :D

what happens when im down.
i say the most ridiculous things.
i eat an oreo mcflurry.
i sent the most embarrassing message to the wrong person.
i almost walk down the escalator going up.
i buy the huge yellow notebook that i have no use for.

we are taking a break.
from each other.

my brilliant idea. OH WELL.

then. my bestfriend and i are like on extremely awkward terms.
we are so not talking normally.
why is everything going wrong.

2006-09-19T22:07:00.000+08:00

that. is my SUPER DUPER UBER CUTE best friend called jiawei.
the lemon flavoured lollipop. :D

so anyway. soon to be 20 sep. shall wish you early. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIAWEI!
i cant remember the exact date i got to know you. but im so blessed to have done so. thank god for ernest that brought us two best friends together. hahaha. we clicked like the first time we met. i remembered the first outing was to movie then to pizza hut. haha. and then followed by LOTS more. i absolutely love spending time with you jiawei. haha. all the sakae sushi, movies, sleepovers at my place, at yours too, zouk, yakking on the phone(which we havent done in ages) and just merely hanging out together. ever since i got into sajc, i havent been spending as much time with you. im so sorry. and i miss you so much. but anyway. OH MY GOD. you are nineteen. haha. please wait for ernest and me till we turn eighteen so we can go clubbing together. haha.
you're a FABULOUS, AMAZING, WONDERFUL, HOT best friend. i totally love you to heavens. haha. remember the dream we had to live together in a house? haha. hopefully we will in the future. i so love you. please enjoy your special day and see you at six.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN MY DEAR BOY. :D

something still tells me i made a wrong decision.
i miss my bestfriend.
and it makes me depressed. ):

2006-09-18T19:46:00.000+08:00

two of my favourite people in this world.

see that pillow in the photo? its my birthday present from them.
A PRETTY PRETTY PILLOW WITH OUR FACES.
i obviously love it la. look how im smiling. told you im happy with them. (:

AND. someone in the lollipops is turning NINETEEN soon.
haha. shall dedicate a post for him on wed. :D

okay. it has been a random post for today. i need to go MUG for maths lecture test tml.
MUGGGGGGGG.

oh and. MR TOAST is the sweetest as always. :D

and. BESTFRIEND. please take care of yourself! if not i will be very worried. :D

We're talking about our lives,
like we've known each other forever.
the time flies by,
with the sound of your voice.

2006-09-17T21:42:00.000+08:00

im blogging like wayyy past my birthday. but nevermind. I LOVED EVERY SECOND OF IT. thank you to all who wished me, bought me presents or cards.
LOVE! :D

new blogskin. thanks xiaowei! i love green what. haha.
i woke up at 630 to have pw meeting at 8 at pp macs.
and i was the second earliest despite staying the furthest. :D
AND. ms tan came too! shes super nice la. thanks so much.
she also talked quite a bit of sense to me. i guess she's right. don't worry. i will try and be friends with her again. i guess we didnt give her much of a chance. oh well. i will try.

met up with ernest at novena. shopped for jiawei's present. haha. its a surprise! love spending time with him. catching up, random talking, yea. thats why hes my best friend. i love ernest. :D

MUG ANSLEY!
i so have to do this.
please have faith.

fooled by my own desires
i twist my fate
just to feel you
but you, turn me toward the light
and you're one with me
will you run with me?

2006-09-03T15:50:00.000+08:00

tuesday is coming at last.
im excited, duh. hahaha. im one year closer to my death. isnt that great. haha.
have my whole entire day planned out already. busy busy day. haha. with bestfriend, sisterhood and lollipops.

that reminds me.
i miss jiawei and ernest alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot.
and im missing out on alot.
i miss watching movies,
walking from ps to cine,
playing photohunt and bashibashi in the arcade,
munching at marks and spencers and embarrassing ourselves infront of the cute cashier,
buying jam sandwiches,
taking neoprints,
experiencing our first night clubbing at zouk together,
staying over at his place,
staying over at my place on new year's night watching like 4 movies,
hanging around far east,
cutting hair together,
jiawei spending valentines day with me and ass club 7,
ernest being the first person who sees me with my clawed face last year,
eating kenny rogers together,
sakae too
and all the embarrassing things we did together.

HEY YOU TWO. i love you two so much. we so have to catch up on tues alright? LOVE LOVE LOVE. :D

crap. sometimes, ansley is so dumb she doesnt even realise it.
i made a wrong decision.
im so so sorry. thats all i can say.
and im definitely not happy this way.

i think im going to get my bestfriend a addidas jacket for his birthday. hahaha.
BESTFRIEND. you're the best la. starbucks on tuesday! LOVE. (:

and i don't want the world to see me
cause i don't think that they'd understand
when everything's made to be broken
i just want you to know who i am

HOLLERBACKS.
M/emily. hey SEXY. hahaha. i love your smile too. haha. miss you. we should meet each other in toilets and corridors more often. LOVE. (:

Wjian. yea. we so have to. haha. i miss you. (:

royce. HEY GIRL! yea. i miss you sooo much too. havent seen you since. a very long time ago. please take care! love you. (:

meilan. you too! see you soon i hope. thanks for dropping by. love. (:

jiawei. YAY! totally cant wait till tues. i miss you two so so so much. LOVE LOVE LOVE. :D

2006-08-17T20:35:00.000+08:00

im sorry.
i really cant do anything else to help make things better.
seriously, what would you like me to do?
im stuck, really stuck.
everytime i see you so sad, i dont feel good either.
and i cant be truly happy if i made you so miserable.

its depressing how you work so hard and do so much for something you love.
but yet some people just can forget about it.
it really meant alot to me.

band concert was amazing.
one family one flag was like the FIRST concert i felt so pleased and the sense of achievement ws just. fabulous. haha. i loved working with sas and the alumni. haha. first time the three of us, ernest jiawei and i, played on stage together. and we sat so near too. haha. love my dudes. :D
and alec, my fellow airheader. you were totally impressive that night. haha. so happy for you too. love you! (:
my favourite piece is still, fantasy variations. probably everyone in sajc's favourite too. we worked so hard and the result is satisfying. at least to me.

thank you sajcband for making this concert so memorable. and to the sasmb and sa alumni. (:

and dorothy, i dont mind going through again too. haha. we are both mad.

band dinner, MOVE SWAY GROOVE.
it just melts me to see everything the retro trio worked so hard for, come true. it went smoothly and everyone seems to enjoy themselves. im so glad. thanks nicole and kenny! seriously, i was about to tear after the dinner ended. yea. it meant alot to all of us.

sleepover. haha. it was quite retarded. we walked out to 7-11 in our retro outfits. haha. me in my green polka dots shorts that looked like boxers. hahaha. yea. i looked very green that day. i love looking retro though. (:

hollers to my seniors.
ANDREW, thanks for entrusting me with the saxtion and helping me all these while. i will miss you taking saxtionals and your lame jokes. haha. thanks for the beautiful card. (:

EEF, darn. i totally miss the crazy you making all sorts of weird comments and statements all the time. i miss running around the track with you too. thanks for the tag, postcard and photo of us. (:

SHUZK MENG, i miss the happy smiling you. i miss the talkative you. thanks for making me so comfortable in the saxtion. i miss the super cute you too. thank you for the vodka. (:

SZU XIANG, oh my god. i miss you so much. thank god for sajc band for bringing us closer since we didnt really talk much in twe. you have changed so much. i love the new you. haha. you are super cute la. and you so can sing la. hahaha. and reading what you wrote to me was so touching please. i miss you szu xiang. thank you for that green thing and the sweet note. (:

i need a shoulder.
i need to get through all these.

hollerbacks to tags.
danny and ally. thanks so much for being there for me. im so thankful 06s11 has brought us closer. love you girls. (:

kumar. haha. HELLO! and thanks so much. you're joining alumni right? (:

benwong. HEY! thanks so much. you take loads of care too. see you in twe alumni. love you loads too. (:

qazz. HELLO! i miss you like mad laa. haha. yea. i know. love my white hairband okay. haha. its freaking retro. yea. im fine. thank you. haha. MISS YOU! (:

clement. haha. yea. i was. you were there? sorry couldnt go find you guys. but thanks for coming. hope you all enjoyed the concert. (:

xingwen. hahaha. right. im so not into the emo look which is so last season. thanks so much. yea. we so need to do those embarrassing and retarded but so fun things we used to do. dude, i miss you like mad. i miss the walks home from mrt or tms. you were always super nice walking me home. thank you so much. oh man. i miss you so so so so much. love you! (:

celiaa. gosh. I MISS YOU SO MUCH TOO! how are you doing? hope everything is fine. i miss you girl. havent seen nor talk to you for like. ages. seriously ages. thanks. im fine i think. im praying you are too. and yea. i miss ass club 7. please take good care of yourself. we must meet up soon. love you my dear girl. (:

nornox/christopher. haha. stop killing my friends. thats not nice of you. hahaha. and yea. i know. i will get through this. haha. when are we meeting up again? miss all your lameness. (:

zbaf. you're fabian right? hahah. thanks so much! glad you still remember me. haha. you take care too. (:

ziqing. girlfriend! i love you super loads too. please take care. (:

jiawei. you looked absolutely hot that day too. haha. we should have taken more photos. haha. and. yea. totally. lets go to kenny rogers again someday and stuff ourselves with corn. haha. love your company. (:

EM. emily right? haha. love you my dear girl. thanks. (:

2006-08-04T21:29:00.000+08:00

everything is happening too sudden, too quick.
im causing problems everywhere, all the time.
whats wrong with me?
i caused you to be miserable.
it was my fault.
it is my fault.
and it will always be my fault.

i broke down in class today. totally pathetic isnt it. and i freaked my whole class out. 3 hours of sleep really took its toll on me.

i hate myself for not being strong enough.
i hate myself for making you so miserable now.
i hate myself for not realising what i did.
i hate myself for letting you down.
i hate myself for causing you so much pain.
i hate myself for making you cry.
i hate myself for crying everyday since tues.
i hate myself for being so dense.

thank you ally for coming to the toilet to look for me and everything else today. i appreciate it.

i cant never forgive myself for everything.
i lost the will to be happy.

2006-08-02T22:26:00.000+08:00

ANSLEY IS DAMN STUPID.
the whole world probably knows that already. but yeah. emphasising my point.
why am i so ignorant?
why am i so dumb and blind?
why did i mislead you?

i am so terribly horribly sorry.
i dont know what else i can do to help.
and seeing you in that state makes me feel worse.
please, if it makes you feel better, please just slap me.

listening to the sugawa cd alec gave me. sugawa is amazing. its understandable why alec is so in love with his playing. somehow, it makes me feel like crying even more. what the hell.

im going mad.

2006-08-01T21:42:00.000+08:00

i have the best bestfriend. :D
he bought me tau huey today because i mentioned that i want it. just that i wasnt free to go over to collect. so yea. he brought it home i think. sorry! but i so appreciate the thought. THANK YOU BESTFRIEND.

ansley. you are stupid really. really really really stupid. someone please kill me.

2006-07-31T22:23:00.000+08:00

finally. havent blogged on the comp for a long long long time.

went out with joshua choo yesterday. shopped with him for his new bag and wallet. found both at mambo. walked a hell lot but yea. it was fun yakking with him. haha. retail therapy does help a little. he said i talked endlessly. haha. im talkative i know.

oh and saturday. went for lunch inbetween band prac with alec. yea. the AIRHEADER. talked alot. hmmm. haha. i guess he knows much more. thanks anyway you airhead. hahaha. :D
oohhh. and he gave me that sugawa cd and postcards from hongkong! hes the best la. haha. happy now alec? haha. THANKS! (:

well. my eyes are getting redder everyday. everyone is telling me that.
its just that there are so many ISSUES happening.
class, saxtion, band, family and friends.

we are best friends and we will always be best friends.
so please guys, dont drift from each other.

i cant face this by myself. but i dont want to be a burden.
and i realised. i dont have a shoulder to cry on.

hollerbacks.
sx. you are? no la. haha. the human in the lala suit, stepped on a bunny and killed it. haha.

wilfred. no. dont scare me. anyway. hello! i miss you.

ziqing. heyy. i miss you so much girlfriend. please take care. i will try to visit asap. love you! (:

ying jie. haha. right. yea. i regret not being able to presuade you then. take care in mj. (:

nicole. HELLO fellow retro trio-er. (:

wei jian. i told you everything le. yeah. thanks anyway for that night at the mrt station.

clement. okay. you guys are seriously scaring me. whats happening?!

ernest. right. 2 la. haha. we did everything and anything together already. haha. anything unglam about me you saw. hahaha. love you super duper uber loads.

hid. haha. thanks. and HELLLO! i miss you hell loads. (:

jiawei. yeah. miss the lollipops. especially you. at least i saw ernest on sat. yeah. LOVE YOU UBER LOADS! :D

edward. HEYYA! how are you? totally miss you.

2006-07-25T13:05:00.000+08:00

HELLO!
im finally blogging after 486298768426029642867 days.
my wireless is screwed you see. hmmm. in the school lib now. yeah. been busy with service learning, studies, sl stuffs, band dinner and band concert.

i totally need 240 hours a day.

DANNY! i love her! shes sitting right next to me. (:
and the girls in my class too.

had pw meeting on sunday in town. went from far east subway to taka basement to orchard lib. we bought a tub of gelato ice cream! haha. yeah. then met ernest jiawei and adam. yeah. hung out and yea. i guess thats the only stress free time i had in the entire week. love the lollipops. (:

this is how i classify my friends.
one. those that i tell my troubles to and do everything and anything with.
two. those that i dont tell my troubles to but do everything and anything with.
three. those that i tell troubles to but dont do everything and anything with.
four. the those that i dont bear to trouble them by telling them my troubles.

2006-07-12T21:54:00.000+08:00

i have so many things to tell you.
some happy but mostly upsetting things to tell you at the same time.
but i dont want to be a burden.

anyway. combined practice today. talked and laughed alot with xavier. yeah. we both miss brisbane and the wonderful time the saxtion had together. haha. the tenors especially. always talking and laughing. those were the carefree days. which will never come back. remembered ernest and xavier falling asleep during concert. remember our saxtionals when we just yakked and joked around. we were so happy then.

im worried about you.
please dont do anything foolish over him ever again.

im feeling pretty much dead.
i hope i survive through these few weeks. with everything piling up on me, i wish there was 240 hours a day. i had alot of those damn-are-you-kidding-me moments today. i think i had enough. i dont want any more. im just having a bad month. or a bad year.

something retarded.
lala from the teletubbies, stepped on a bunny during one of the shows and killed it. she was sued and replaced. i dont know why, but i found it funny. i have a weird sense of humour.

im not unhappy, im just not smiling.

2006-07-11T21:09:00.000+08:00

COMMONTESTS ARE FINALLY OVER! :D

but yeah. from tomorrow onwards i will be so busy. hmmm. went town today. finally. hahaha. walked the whole of far east with yi mei, eunice, mindy and xiaowei. so fun. haha. looked at super duper uber expensive vintage dresses. but they were so pretty. (:
found so many funky things i so have to buy next time to decorate my house with. haha. oh right. and thats if im like. freaking rich. found a totally vintage shop, stuffs are so cool in there. haha. tried on sunglasses today, mostly too big for me. BUT, i love the aviators. hahaha.

and i want gold birkenstocks.

last friday.
went to singapore poly to meet jiawei at noon. haha. sp's crooked. okay. only jiawei will get it. hahaha. he brought me around the engineering block. its so big cann. then we went to far east for lunch then went back to his place. haha. watched tv for a few hours, entertained ourselves with old movies. haha. then we went to raffles place to meet ernest. bought pretty dasies for aaron tau, aaron ang and joshua. haha. and we went food court for dinner. haha. made quite a fool of ourselves buying dim sums. then we RAN to vch. hahaha.

okay. shall not comment on the concert. but yeah. they are capable of much better music.

went to esplanade there to eat. jiawei and i took super long to cross the road, we almost died. haha. hmmm. yeah, was feeling somehow down. but yeah. love the company of the two of them.

these few days have been rather frustrating.
somehow, i still feel theres something different between us.

i wish i had someone too.

maybe if you smile a little more,
maybe if you smile a little widder,
maybe if you smile a little longer,
the world will be a more beautiful place.

hollerbacks.
JIAWEI, replying your tag here. haha. i totally love the retarded cute handsome you. we will go out real real soon okay?

ERNEST, i miss you too! huh? why philipino songs? haha.

THE LOLLIPOPS, i totally love you guys. sensing i was down on fri, you guys tried means and ways to cheer me up. haha. so fortunate to have you guys. we will meet up real real real soon okay?
you guys make me happy.
LOVE! :D

dorothy, haha. okay. will buy you the notebook when its like, christmas or something. hahaha. (:

jacob, OMG. loyang pri school one? hahaha. HELLOO! of course i remember you! haha. how are you? miss you loads. (:

luling, THANKS SO MUCH. haha. yay! its over le. please take care too, love you, you're amazing. (:

christopher, RIGHT. hahaha. please be more careful and stop killing ants. when are we meeting up again? haha.

2006-07-05T20:08:00.000+08:00

chemistry was horrible.

sat right next to the stupid fan that kept blowing my fringe to the other side. but yeah. almost didnt finish my paper. i so prefer sitting right in the front.

popped by props com meeting today. dorothy seems stressed out.
CHILL GIRL! im always here if you need any help. (:

went broadway to eat after that with the girls. talked about unglam stuffs like not zipping your jeans or skirt and weird stuffs the guys in temasek used to do like pulling at a girl's bra strap. hahaha. then we went to macs. everyone was feeling restless, i ended up doodling. sort of designed the band dinner poster, scribbled stuffs here and there, wasted quite a few pieces of paper.

then i realised, i havent been doodling for quite some time.
and im lacking of colour markers.

sat there from 1230 to 6. mych and zak left early for town, eunice dorothy and alison went back to school and fung yin left after some time too. so yeah, xiaowei and i sat there till our butts hurt. haha. i was getting so restless and frustrated i kept going 'marder. im restless.' like 4867282968 times. haha.

on the way back, on the bus home, i met this childhood friend of mine. vera. okay, in my childhood, fridays were the most anticipating day of the week. it was the day i would go the changi beach club and swim, play arcade, hang out with my bestest friend, charlene. vera was always in the club too, but we hardly mixed cause she was a total snob. so anyway, just now, she sat with her boyfriend right infront of me standing. and yeah, they were all over each other.

i feel so awkward.

yeah, and when i got off the bus, there was a two vjc students all over each other too at the bus stop. isnt that sweet.

i think its a sign.
everyone around seems to be in love.

random. i wish i was in a gay mood. or rather a 'lalala' mood.

2006-07-03T19:43:00.000+08:00

the weekend was alright i guess.
saturday i went to ikea with the lollipops and jarrod. took retarded photos. ate yummy meatballs, took photos of a man in pyjamas in ikea, shopped for stuffs and went to jiawei's place to watch howl's moving castle. haha. totally love the show. but we didnt finish it.
sunday, went to church. jiawei didnt make it again. oh well. ernest couldnt stop talking about someone and i couldnt stop complaining about how england and brazil lost. oh well. just hope germany wins now.

today, met ally at 8 am. okayy, i was a bit late, 820. haha. gossipped then we studied. yeah, ally is great company to study with. haha. and she forgot to take her phone, thank goodness it was still there when she went back. LOVE YOU ALLY. :D

ooohhh. then went to meet yi mei at siglap, our used-to-be favourite hangout. sat at starbucks for some time, tried to study. yeah, the main point is the word TRIED. ended up talking and talking then decided to rent dvds to watch at her place. haha. rented exorcism of emily rose and bought mircowave popcorn.

okayy, we TRIED to pop the popcorn. there were three packets.
first attempt, about half popped, the rest didnt.
second attempt, burnt.
third attempt, three quarter popped.

haha. anyway, we were so worried about getting totally traumatised. but, it wasnt that bad i guess. haha. we laughed at some parts to keep things light la. haha. and we didnt understand the ending. oh well. nevermind. haha. we are totally weird people, watching dvds before gp commontest tomorrow. its been some time since we hung out like that, laughing and doing retarded stuffs. yeah, i wish things could be so simple.

anyway, TOTALLY LOVE YOU MY RETARDED BEZZIE. :D

after commontests, HAPPINESS. but i will probably be super duper uber busy.
august concert, racial harmony performance, band dinner, twe alumni and school work.

yeah i know, i need wayyy better time management.

anyway, gp tomorrow. im off to mug. at least attempt to.
ALL THE BEST FOR COMMONTESTS SAINTS. (:

when you told me, i was shocked yet happy yet sad.
yeah, im confusing myself too.
eyes watering.

2006-06-30T22:12:00.000+08:00

mugging. at least im trying. chinese paper was a horror, fell asleep for a while mainly because the passages were so boring and i didnt really understand them. spent the whole week either at potong pasir or toa payoh macs studying. potong pasir's one is definitely nearer to school but toa payoh's one is still the best. haha. the second level with the plasma tv that shows soccer. :D

today at macs, i did very embarrassing stuffs, saw embarrassing stuffs and said embarrassing stuffs. nevermind. totally love the girls. :D

oh yeah. deborah is a very nice friend. haha. deb, happy now? haha. and see, my blog post is happy. (:

ansley is definitely silly.
first, she didnt extend her ezy link card student thingy in april. hers was giro which meant auto top up through your band account and she was SUPPOSED to extend the student thingy at mrt stations. and she never tapped out on buses. so yeah. it was thanks to ernest lee who pointed out that she was paying adult fare on the 12 of june. so she has been paying adult fare since april till then. probably the amount of money taken out of her bank account to the ezy link was maybe around a hundred, considering the number of buses she took a day, and that she never tapped out. and sbs transit is not refunding her. this totally reminded her of the $300 for brisbane trip that magically disappeared in twe bandroom.

how silly can one get?
yeah. this silly.

i hope you meant it when you said it.
but then again, just forget it.

ansley is really silly.

sometimes the scenery is so beautiful, it looks unreal.

2006-06-24T18:15:00.000+08:00

everyone's talking about love.

just the other day, my friend turned to me and told me that he missed the feeling of being loved. yeah, i guess the feeling of being loved is good, i forgot how long ago was it, that i was in a relationship, a real one.

yeah, i am a total flop at love.

i am either the third party/the bitch, or im being played.

anyway. band stuffs. this one is about joel.

you all have to agree, it is an issue, a major one in fact. joel asked me today, why do so many people dislike him in band. so i told him.

about what he used to say about him, and how his actions after he came changed. he gave a valid reason, i can vouch for that.

about his playing, he knows he doesnt blend in. he tried, but he couldnt and he didnt know who to approach. but now he does, and given a bit more time, he will blend in.

about his conducting, he is STILL LEARNING. you cant expect him to perform miracles. yeah, i admit i was rather frustrated with him whenever he conducted, but hes trying, hes really trying hard. as he said, every conductor has their own style. if we are only used to mr glosz's, we might as well make carbon copies of him. he knows his strokes are not very clear, hes trying to improve.

dont think hes not affected by our comments and our actions, he is. so please, we should all just put ourselves in his shoes and prehaps we would see things differently. he does want to be our conductor, all he needs now is time and our cooperation. i can say that im trying, but are you?

okay. i told him im putting this up my blog, just hope it helps. and i dont think they dislike you, they are just unable to understand certain issues. anyway, YOU CAN DO IT JOEL! :D

2006-06-23T22:50:00.000+08:00

i finally decided to blog after two lazy nights. please be happy. (:

wed was band meeting.
talked about batch problems and everything. i guess it was a wake up call to everyone. yeah.

IM PLANNING RETRO BAND DINNER WITH NICOLE AND KENNY! THE RETRO TRIO. :D

okay. sorry for the oh-so-original name. the band still have not decided on a name yet. but yeah. finally, something to add to the events i look forward to.

ONE. AUG SAINTS FAMILY BAND CONCERT.
TWO. RETRO BAND DINNER. :D

anyway, we went cafe cartel for lunch! and we all ordered the same thing. can you believe it? haha. ALL ELEVEN OF US. it was seriously coincidental. so anyway. we decided we so need to catch a movie together. so we did, SHES THE MAN. the guy in it is so hot, we girls were gushing over how cute he was in the movie. hahaha. but what a name, channing tatum. and the jokes this time, was funny and totally laughable at. totally love the show. (:

then we went strolling around ps and decided to take neoprints. yeah, all eleven of us squeezed in one booth. hahaha. SO FUN! then we lingered around mos burger to talk. and decided to leave, but on the way to the busstop, we just stopped. and talked for like an hour. hahaha.

the whole stack of postcards mych and i took from cafe cartel and cathay. haha. and my super colourful notebook. :D

neos. yeah. probably cant see anything. haha. but yeah. totally love them. :D

thursay. band bbq.
met zi qing at about 2 at bedok. haha. we went town in our shorts and band tee. we took two neoprints, first time, everything was either green or orange. haha. yeah, finally got time to spend with my junior. LOVE HER! :D

one of our nicer neos.

in the neos machine. haha. i was bored okay.

then we waited at siglap for like an hour for yi mei. so we reached ecp at about 7 plus. there wasnt much food left by then, and there was like 20 plus juniors only who were mostly minding their own business and hanging out at the beach. so yeah. the alumni entertained ourselves. we played polar bear. hahaha. it was so fun hanging out with them again, i so miss alumni pracs. rickson and his continuous name calling, wang quan who always get killed first, yilin and her blurness, yeah. i miss them. when we left, we sang 'its me, its me, its me who build community' song. total kuku-ness. haha. but we like. (:

today. going to school.
woke up late and met anavail to show him the way to sajc. alison and i went to met ms tan for chemistry consultation. hahaha. ms tan looks super cute and small boy-ish in her shorts and shirt. and she was complaining about hip hop dancing. haha. then went to meet the other 2 of retro trio for meeting. then we studied at macs. ALISON! thanks and i love you! (:

went to jiawei's house after studying. stayed and watched him play dota for a while. haha. its interesting. anyway. we watched contact on starmovies. jodie foster, totally love her. haha. anyway. LOVE YOU LEMON LOLLIPOP. :D

randoms.
my best friend is back.

i love the carefree singing at the top of our voices while walking across the bridge.

i wonder if i should tell him.

2006-06-20T20:29:00.000+08:00

just came back from town. went with yi mei and her sister. haha. went to far east to find a new bag, but to no avail. nevermind. shall live with the puma one for now. hmmm. i bought two notebooks! haha. both very colourful.

yeah, colourful things make me happy. :D

but anyway, tried fried mars bars and triple c, cheesy curry chicken from the british takeaway store. i preferred triple c. haha. at least to us, the fried mars bars were not as orgasmic as zat said it was. i spent my money on notebooks, foolscap paper and colour pens. okay, i obviously love to waste money on such things. haha.

looking forward to tomorrow. i'm gonna try and study now. TRY. haha. oh yeah. shall watch little britian on arts central at 10 pm, ying jie recommended.

random. i still miss my best friend.

2006-06-20T12:28:00.000+08:00

day out with some of the sajc band girls. as usual, we didnt study much at all. haha. we do what we do best, gossip. yes, we gossip about anything under the sun. how guys shouldnt shave their armpit hair but trim, the cute guys in sajc, hot actors you get the idea. totally random stuffs. haha. anyway. we did this card for mindy and dorothy and i drew all our faces. yeah, it was hilarious. hahaha. but anyway, they were cute okay. :D and we were planning to surprise mindy with a cake and the card. so after like an hour plus of sitting and eating and yakking at popeyes, we moved the the viewing gallery and just plonked ourselves there. started to try and study. then, i said 'lets go toilet.' and gave the look which meant, lets go buy cake for mindy. THEN. mych happily said, 'oh. lets go buy cake.' and yeah. mindy obviously heard. hahaha. sorry mindy, but yeah. its the thought that counts. haha. mych, we still love you all the same. haha.

oh yeah. we sang mindy a birthday song. new and improved version.
happy birthday to you,
you're born in the park,
with the flowers and bushes,
you look like them too. WE LOVE YOU MINDY. :D

by the way, mindy's heart is beating slower and slower and her fingernail has a white spot that she claims glows in the dark. yeah, its a sign. haha. she thinks shes dying. hahaha. yeah. so anyway, we spent like the rest of the time, eating the very nice chocolate cake and gossiping. totally enjoy time with them. (:

oh yeah. i bought a really thick white hairband that costed me 7 bucks. oh my marder i know. haha. but yeah. i suit the retro look. :D thank you girls for picking it for me. haha. but im so not going to draw polka dots on it.

cliques. they are everywhere. yes, yi mei and i have be labelled too clique-ish since like secondary three. but get this straight, even though we have a clique, it doesnt mean we dont welcome others in, that we build a wall around us. its just that we hang out together, anyone is invited to join in the fun. anyway, i love my cliques. :D

thank you welsonn for that blog post. that was sweet. i am happy. (:

random. i miss my best friend.

all three of you are freaking me out. all these sudden calls and smses, i really dont know how to react and deal with them. yes, im tired of lies and guys playing with me.

2006-06-19T14:21:00.000+08:00

oohh. today's fish and co lunch was great. haha. we ate while watching mtv's footballers' cribs on the very nice plasma tv there. haha. if i had to have a part time job, i dont mind going there to work, its pretty nice.

then i went to meet ernest at orchard. as usual, he was late. haha. we walked to far east and went to klearcut for both our haircuts. haha. okay, mine is just trim of the fringe and thinning of my thick hair. my hairdresser's name is eve. shes nice. haha.

OH YEAH. something random. you know when they wash your hair and their fingers go round your ear, i think its really ticklish and i always laugh. haha. anyway. it costed me 33 bucks. and jiawei didnt notice a difference when we went to paragon to meet him. haha. nevermind.

oohhhh. i got new green paul frank flip flops. love them. :D

how we spent the 20 bucks voucher jiawei's mom gave. we walked to robinsons which was in a mall we never stepped in before. and we were looking around the toys section. our favourite, wow-ing over superman toys and bob the builder underwears. hahaha. then we gave up and went to marks and spencers. bought jam sandwiches and raspberry puffs then went to the cafe revive and took 2086574670842 minutes to order a double pot of tea, hot chocolate and a selection of chocolates. haha. and we took another 40687420762 minutes standing near the counter to realise that you could take the small jar of milk near the counter for free. yeah. totally embarrassing. haha.

next, we walked down to plaza sing to the arcade and played a round of bishi bashi. i think thats how you spell it. haha. yeah. i lost AGAIN. nevermind. haha. then suddenly, we decided to come to my place and watch dvds. so we took a mrt down to bedok and rented amelie. it is the most random show i have ever watched. haha. but its so us, i loved it. haha. something from the show, life is only but a draft, preparing for a long show that never plays.

this is one of the times that i feel like i am not important to you. yeah, its probably true. i dont know why im acting this way, its just that you say something but you dont show it at all. thats all thats making me feel this way.

okayy. i just like this photo of us. hmmm. its taken like that, to the exact blurness. and obviously, im on the far left, the shortest. (:

2006-06-18T15:31:00.000+08:00

my brother drove us to the airport for lunch today. haha. it was a bumpy ride but yeah. its the road he say. haha. we are going to the airport for lunch tml again. this time to fish and co because hes only familiar with that route. what a reason please. anyway. stayed the whole day at home watching the whole season 2 of lost. love the show. hmmm. long day at home only equals to alot of thinking done as well. yeah.

looking forward to going out with the lollipops tomorrow. they make me happy. :D

RANDOM. ying jie just came online and told me he bought a green jacket. hahaha. so random please. but yeah. haha. YAY! fellow green lover. its nice that he remembers me loving green. (:

hmmm. oh. its 12 now. HAPPY FATHERS DAY! to all dads, you guys are the greatest men to your children. (:

somehow, there are still issues but i dont know how to say it out. sorry bestfriend.

i just realised i took 26 minutes to write this statement. haha. the problem of multitasking. everything is done slow. actually, just a question, guys are able to multitask too right? as in seriously. right? haha. i know of so many guys who can talk on the phone and chat online and watch tv. whats with the saying that only girls can multitask? haha. okay. just questioning. i shall go and add something to my sketchbook now. LOVE TO ALL. (:

2006-06-16T22:03:00.000+08:00

firstly, i woke up late for my study date with alison. haha. so we met at about 1015 and we yakked and yakked till about 12 before i really got down to studying. haha. i filled her in about everything i did the last few days and certain issues. and, alison is the best please. she taught me chemistry. haha. I LOVE YOU ALLY! :D

yeah. then there was a few people who drop by, aaron, jianhui and alec. for their gifts from perth. haha. oh right. alec treated me to apple pie. hes very nice i know. haha. then ally left and i had my pw meeting. hmmm. went on for like 2 hours plus. well, i guess it was rather productive, even though they were mostly joking around and talking about soccer. oh well. thats the problem of being the only girl in the group. hmmm. called ernest out to ps. haha. but when we walked around for like ten minutes, we got bored and decided to walk down to heerens. haha. yeah. went to the same shops i went yesterday. then we walked ALL THE WAY to borders and i bought stuffs. not books though. haha. how ironic. COLOURFUL METAL PENCILCASE! totally love it. hmmm. then we walked to far east, tried looking for some shop he was so sure was at the third floor but yeah. we didnt find it. haha. we found a totally cool notebook shop. their notebooks are totally funky. the ones at borders were rather normal but still nice. hmmm. but they were all expensive and i so dont need more notebooks to be wasted. haha. walked around till my legs were aching then he walked me to the busstop. yeah. thank you and LOVE YOU ERNEST! :D

random statement. i am glad we are still best friends. (:

random statement two. my brother passed his driving test! his first try please. so proud of him. haha. hes brilliant i know. (:

random thought. im totally delighted to see him again. but it brought back too many memories. too many happy memories that are now making me sad.

2006-06-16T14:22:00.000+08:00

i went town today with alec. met him around 433. yeah. i was late by 3 minutes and he was punctual. sorry! haha. first, we walked from wisma to taka. then we sat outside zara to think of where to go next. and we decided to go starbucks which was back at wisma. haha. sat for quite some time. then walked around shops trying to find something for xiaowei. walked from wisma to taka then to heerens then to lucky plaza then back to taka then wisma for jap food. anyway. at heerens, we saw the cutest thing ever. okay. things. and we said 'its sooo cute!' at the same time. seriously. haha. addidas shop's mr happy sneakers and sweater are very very very very cute. sneakers are like 249 bucks and sweater 189 bucks.
its so cute right. haha. and alec's photography skills are so not good. haha. anyway. i wish i was loaded now. haha. alec is also a true airheader. haha. he didnt know what num stood for in the new urban male shop. hahaha. New Urban Male duh. haha. its okay. it happened to me, jiawei and ernest too. hahaha. hmmm. we went to some jap restaurant for dinner. yums! haha. better than sakae. yeah. so anyway. we spent 4 and a half hours talking like non stop. okayy. maybe for a few seconds here and there. haha. i realised i talk ALOT around him. hahaha. so does he okay and he say hes an introvert. yeah sure. haha. and. i forgot to give him the postcards i wrote when i was in perth. oh mann. airhead i know. haha. oh well. its still very fun airhead-ing around. its interesting how i can click so well with a 21 year old. haha. THANK YOU ALEC! (:

i realised i have a small paul frank collection. a green wallet, a green pouch, a yellow phone strap, a black and pink cap and a black, red and white pencil case. haha. saw a file that matchs my pencil case but there were three rings inside, how to file. and a notebook too! but yeah. i have too many notebooks already. haha. yeah. i now lack flip flops, file, clock, key chain, watch, shirts and bag in my collection. haha. yeah. i wish i was loaded. i know, im quite kuku over paul frank. and now, mr happy too. haha. LOVE PAUL FRANK AND MR HAPPY! (:

dude, whats happening to our friendship?

there's a song that's inside of my soul
it's the one that i've tried to write over and over again
sing to me the song of the stars
of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again
when it feels like my dreams are so far
sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again

2006-06-15T12:44:00.000+08:00

bummed around jiawei's house today again. haha. studied a bit of chemistry and taught jiawei trigo. drank campbell soup and ate homemade sushi then we watched lord of the rings: the two towers and return of the king. haha. i have got to stop calling the two towers the twin towers. haha. you know, have you ever thought that putting lotr, x men and harry potter characters together would make an awesome show? haha. we did. cant bum around his house anymore, jiawei has band camp. oh well. nevermind. the lollipops are meeting up on sat! im happy spending time with them. (:

yeah. i think i forgot the feeling already. of the crazy thing called love.

2006-06-15T03:20:00.000+08:00

click here for PERTH PHOTOS! (:
http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v693/mentalpink/sajc%20perth%20trip/

the purple octopus alec gave me. its freaking cute. love it. (:

i just took ALOT of time to upload the photos. so that explains the lateness. haha. anyway. went to jiawei's house today. bummed around watching les choristes and the omen. les choristes was AMAZING! haha. loved the show. those boys so can sing, especially angelface. okay. his name was pierre something something. haha. so cute and so can sing. haha. the omen, the older version was just boring. we were changing the whole show into a bimbo one. yeah. so we laughed quite alot. hmmm. after that, we went town for dinner. bought a new sketchbook. i so need to start doodling. anyway. my nose is still like a tap. haha. had to take one box of tissue from jiawei's house out to town. totally unglam. hope no one saw the box in my bag. anyway. because of my flu, my voice is totally muffled and yeah. im totally misunderstood. haha. shades became shit. and many others. ernest just called me and yeah. i asked him whether its the 14th of june yet and i repeated like 5 times but yeah. still couldnt hear. nevermind. haha. gonna study with the lollipops tomorrow. YAY! haha. LOVE THE LOLLIPOPS! :D

oh yeah. before i forget. HAPPY THREE MONTHS TO XIAOWEI! my holding hands partner. thank you for EVERYTHING, for taking extra special care of me everywhere and just everything. you are the best. LOVE YOU HEAVEN LOADS! <3

just a random thought. just remembered in perth, the band girls said i suited the retro look. haha. yay. you know, thick headbands, polka dots and all. yeah. i love those. haha.

another random thought. i think i totally forgot the feeling already.

2006-06-13T14:16:00.000+08:00

BACK FROM PERTH. haha. okay. everyone is blogging abt perth. yeah.
top 20 things i miss about perth.
ONE. FUNG YIN! my roommate in both aaron's hotel and karma chalet. shes super cute and super retarded. hahaha. when we argue, its like two hobbits fighting. hahaha. I LOVE HER LOADS! so gonna miss her. (:
TWO. aarons hotel. even tho it was small. haha. it was still rather cosy after spending so many nights there. haha. (:
THREE. ice mocha from downtown convenience store. haha. had it every night. haha.
FOUR. many many saxtion photo taking! LOVE MY SAXTION! everyone of them. you know, they are all crazy ppl too. haha. including esther. (:
FIVE. yi siong and his cheesy smiles. haha. they are so rare please. hahaha.
SIX. the BEAUTIFUL SCENERIES. esp at the wind farm, the gap and at night in albany. its just. literally breathtaking. haha.
SEVEN. pictionary and germs nights. uber fun. (:
EIGHT. all those kuku ppl. hahaha. yi mei, xiaowei, jocelyn, mindy, kenneth, jun jie, jarryl, fung yin, alison, mychelle, lynette, esther, dorothy, eunice and wei qin. LOVE THEM! (:
NINE. oh yeah. so cannot forget the retarded videos and photos we took at night on the street. hahaha. we are such retards.
TEN. special mention to jocelyn. that R. haha. R stands for retard. haha. we are THE Rs. haha. it was fun shopping with her, fung yin and esther in fremantle. SO GONNA MISS HER. (:
ELEVEN. xiaowei for taking extra special care of me. LOVE YOU LOADS! (:
TWELVE. the double rainbows we saw. it was so pretty!
THIRTEEN. karma chalet. it is so gorgeous. haha. the place is lovely and cosy. but freezing. hahaha. burraboi! thats the name of my chalet. loved my cabinmates too. haha. fung yin, esther, nicole, sylvia and wei qin. (:
FOURTEEN. cooking! haha. i toasted bread for breakfast and stirred the pasta with the ingredients. not bad okay. haha. it was so fun preparing for the cooking competition. haha.
FIFTEEN. midland brick brass band. an amazing outstanding awesome brass band. haha. i was totally wow-ing the entire time when they played. seriously. they played paganini variations. it was just. woah. haha.
SIXTEEN. the denmark performance was the most memorable one. haha. even tho there were so little audience and it was drizzling. we all could feel the music. haha. it was the best performance there. (:
SEVENTEEN. david the bus driver. haha. he was awfully nice to us and very patient. haha.
EIGHTEEN. alvin yeo that joker. haha. i imagined him to be serious and all. but hes totally kuku 90%of the time. haha.
NINETEEN. eating with saxtion, horns, double reeds and cornets. haha. all the super lame and retarded stuffs that we talk abt. haha. they are fun people too. (:
TWENTY. spending eight whole days with the batch. i love them! :D

stuffs happened in perth. and im worried. i have no idea how to react to them. its like BOOM in your face. yi mei, tell me what to do now.

anyway. im down with flu now. really bad one. cant stop sniffing and sneezing. yeah. its so uncomfortable. oh man. ernest says i should sleep without the aircon and close all windows. and hide under the blanket and wear a sweater to bed. i think i will not wake up tml. probably be dead tonight. hahaha. im so not doing that la. haha. oh well. hmmm. spent the day at home drawing labels for the gifts and sorting out my notes. i think i need a new sketch book. oh well.
LOVE THE LOLLIPOPS. just hope we will always stay this close. though i just feel like we might be drifting a little. nevermind. im tired.

2006-06-02T09:07:00.000+08:00

eventful week. haha. last friday was the last day of school. exciting. haha. jianhui asked me out for x men 3 at like 7. haha. the movie was at 930 at great world city. haha. the show was great. haha. and embarrassing stuffs happened to us, we shall not mention. hahahaha. anyway. he cant stop laughing at me cause i believed kevin. cause he told me that magneto and mystic got married. yeah. haha. i actually believed him. okay. dont start laughing at me too. im embarrassed enough. so anyway. we had no idea where to take cab from so we walked quite a bit. yakked quite a bit. yeah. OUR FIRST OUTING! (:
all i remembered on sat was that i had really bad gastrics. okay. sunday went to church early to meet kenneth and ernest's cousins prepare for ernest's birthday surprise. haha. jiawei and ernest were rather late. but anyway. smashed cake into his face. haha. after which was singing rehearsal. usual fun.
monday ERNEST'S BIRTHDAY! haha. after band, met jiawei and went to his house to prepare his present. haha. i think it was freaking nice la. haha. ernest, you better take good care of it. we were late and ernest was early. ironic. haha. oh yeah. jiawe stylied my hair! haha. it was so much nicer. thanks! but anyway. went gelare for waffles then went to the arcade. havent been there for ages with them. wasted alot of his money as usual. haha. then, we went to watch x men 3 at 9. yeah. AGAIN. still as fun, still interesting. only found out that night that after the credits there was still about 2 mins of the show. and ernest sent me home in the cab after that. thanks so much. hope you loved the present and enjoyed the night with us. LOVE YOU LOADS! (:
tuesday. band dinner. haha. after sectionals and self prac, zat picked yi mei and me up. went up to the hotel room and started removing the ugly plastic wrapper from the roses. tiring okay. haha. then went to bathe and get ready. zat stylied my hair! it was totally awesome. haha. sound check and all. i was panicking. so anyway. met twe after so long. i really do miss them alot. oh right. the opening item. haha. well, it was fine. haha. a bit of hiccups here and there. esp the last line. haha. but yeah. still an amazing experience. hmmm. nevertheless, the dinner was still a success. everything went smoothly. yi mei and i tried to win the most gila award. but we failed. so cant believe it. hahaha. but yeah. took quite alot of photos. haha. the last part was the most hilarious. zat and his video. hahahaha. he was complaining how he always spoils surprises. but that was truly one good surprise. haha. anyway. im never ever ever gonna wear a low cut dress ever again. at least THAT low cut. sajcians should know why. haha. yeah. and john, when do you want to borrow my sexy low cut dress? hahaha.

two of the photos with my gorgeous girlfriend in twe! ZI QING. (: shall upload the rest another time. yeah. that is the low cut dress.

leaving for yi mei's house later in the evening. parents going to shanghai. and we are off to perth on sat. really exciting. sort of packed my luggage already. i hope i didnt forget anything. and this time, i will NOT leave my universal adaptor in perth this time. LOVE TO ALL! TAKE LOADS OF CARE. :D

2006-05-26T13:18:00.000+08:00

i went out to buy something for someone for someday. yeah. haha. anyway. read jiawei's blog so decided to reply him here too.

JIAWEI. haha. thank you. just dont ever have suicide tendencies. cause you do influence me. haha. but yeah. we so cant ever get ourselves hurt over relationships okay. haha. cause we got each other. at the end of the day, we will probably remain single living together in that green and orange house we are gonna build and decorate ourselves. ikea stuffs are cool okay. hahaha. hmmm. yeah. meanwhile, i will definitely run out of my tutorial or lecture if you ever need me. haha. dont worry. WHOLE LOAD OF LOVE! :D

JIANHUI. thank you so much for typing that whole chunk of stuff for me yesterday. haha. i really didnt expect you to do it. hmmm. yeah. and. take care of your knees, dont play too much of basketball and soccer when you are have injuried knees and dont catch a cold. haha. remember either 21 or 22 june okay. haha. LOVE LOADS! (:

THANKS EVERYONE FOR THEIR ENCOURAGEMENT AND WORDS OF CONCERN. not upset already. just more of troubled. but yeah. LOVE! (:

2006-05-22T10:52:00.000+08:00

jiawei, im afraid i might go the extent of doing what you did to yourself, to myself too. okay. i wont. i dont believe in doing such stuffs. but yeah. i will probably freak out before doing it. i guess i will just totally break down soon.
there are just too many things piling up on me.

i wish i could help you, and it really really hurts knowing what you did to yourself.
i wish i could do it right, but everything i do seems wrong.
i wish i had what it takes, but i guess i dont.
i wish i could do something to help you get back your confidence, but i dont know how to.

i really used to love smiling, at everything. people used to ask me back in temasek, why do you always seem so happy. i had this way of saying hi, it was just really hyper and happy HI. i used to be really love everything i was doing. i used to. i thought it would make people feel happier somehow. yeah. i think im losing it. i probably am. even though i was really busy last year, that so doesnt beat whats going on now. my life is seriously screwed. im a lousy section leader. im letting everyone down. im not firm enough. i dont know how to help myself at all. i dont even know how come im losing all my confidence, i dont know how to pick myself up. yeah. there are people around me who needs help, needs a shoulder, all i could offer was just comforting words, nothing that could actually really help the situation. so many upsetting things have been happening. im supposed to be able to think positive and be happy, but how? i will end up deluding myself. im just becoming like a totally negative. its so contradicting how i can tell someone to cheer up and that everything will be fine yet i cant apply it to myself. i have to study, but im lacking of time. i so cannot retain. i love having people happy around me. i really dont want to end up worrying my friends who have their problems of their own, especially her. i never want my friends to be upset because of me. i never used to have eye bags. but now i do and they are so obvious. yeah. wei jian, you are right. i need 240 hours a day. okay. today i finally sorted out all my thoughts that i have been pushing to the back of my head. yeah. sorry for the long boring retarded entry. i dont even remember the last time i was really really really happy. LOVE to all.

2006-05-15T09:56:00.000+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY. :D
okay. went ck tangs to shop today. and. i almost bought a FCUK brown dress. sighs. its sooo elegant. haha. but yeah. i have 3 more dinners to attend within this two years. what for spend so much for one. and. it was freaking freaking low cut. haha. my brother bought a really funky fossil watch. additional 2 changable straps. so nice. haha. i want one too. too bad im not a watch kind of person. ANYWAY. i have FIVE tests next week. two compos and gpp second draft due too. i am so doomed. ansley, get used to it.
YI MEI. haha. heres your shoutout. haha. i dont have to tell you you are good, you already know it. haha. and abt him, maybe he has his reasons. anyway. dont worry. i help you collect money! hahaha. and. one out of three chances. and look at all those nerds. totally high chance of winning la. haha. anyway. i so have to go mug now. wth. two weeks before hoildays. will go ecp someday soon okay? and. i love trying out dresses with you. haha. and taking totally retarded neoprints. hahaha. I LOVE YOU! (:

2006-05-14T14:02:00.000+08:00

HAPPY TWO MONTHS XIAOWEI! hahaha. holding hands partners.
please have faith in yourself okay? you can only be good if you tell yourself you are. yeah. it so applies to myself too. anyway. haha. i love your presents! haha. the ring and the necklace. they are literally sweet. hahaha. LOVE YOU LOADS AND LOADS! (:

went out with yi mei and xiaowei to town. took really retarded neoprints. well. xiaowei was being normal and smiling. while the two of us were just doing very spastic things. haha. to destress. hahaha. we are so retarded please. but thats what makes taking neoprints fun. haha. hmmm. waited for like 90 mins for her interview. hmmm. went shopping after that for presents. then yi mei and i went to meet zat at far east. haha. tried vintage dresses this time. hahaha. they were well, different from what i would wear. but they were unique and interesting. haha.

go for the ones who can make you laugh and smile.
for me, they must be able to take spastic neos and laugh about it with me as well. hahaha.

ansley, HAVE FAITH.

2006-05-13T14:04:00.000+08:00

yesterday i met jiawei for dinner at ps. waffles at gelare! haha. and usual gossiping and laughing and embarrassing ourselves. and. he told me uber duper shocking stuffs. oh well. but yeah. he sent me home. haha. one of the very few times. haha. LOVE YOU HEAVEN LOADS! :D
today met at xingwen's place for rehearsal. its so fun rehearsing with them. all the laughing and 'oh my marder'ing with them. hahaha. yeah. went town together too. haha. its just so entertaining and fun with the 3 of them. haha. and i love the better toy shop. it sells uber funky toys. haha. really. we were 'wow'ing at like everything. sounds like we got deprived childhood. haha. but yeah. its so fun in there. haha.
THE BETTER TOY SHOP. venue: level 4 or 5 of taka. A MUST GO! (:
oh yeah. zat made us try on dresses at zara. ahhhh. it was so fun tho. haha. and i fell in love with a $179 zara black and white dress. haha. will one hundred and seventy-nine bucks drop from the sky? i wish. hahaha.
and. DO YOU KNOW OF ANYONE GOING JAPAN SOON?! haha. cause i just found out today that cds of nobuya sugawa can only be bought in japan. saddening okay. for my birthday, i would really really really really want one of his cds. haha.
oh well. i still havent bought present for the 13th of may. and havent drawn a mother's day card. and i so havent done my tuts nor studied for my FIVE tests next week. im so only looking forward for the holidays. band dinner, perth trip and more outings with THE LOLLIPOPS! oh yeah. I MISS YOU ERNEST! and please get well soon. LOVE YOU HEAVEN LOADS TOO. :D

2006-05-11T12:33:00.000+08:00

LALALALA. went out with alec yesterday. yeah. ate sakae! haha. he was being psychotic and all. haha. hmmm. we watched the wild. the most airhead show ever. hahaha. oh right. we are airheads anyway. hahaha. hmmm. oh yeah. went toys 'r' us to buy toys for bmer and lexy. bought uber cute squirting thingys. hahaha. i loved the purple octopus! haha. and he says that he will give it to me after he comes back. cause he gave 3 to the puppies and kept the octopus for himself. haha. but yeah. hes giving it to me. hahaha. TAKE CARE IN SYDNEY FELLOW AIRHEAD-ER. :D oh yeah. i love sitting in his car or his rented car. both. haha. cause i love the songs he play. nobuya sugawa. totally heavenly music. haha.
anyway. must must must must do my tuts. LOVE! (:

i am a chipped lollipop.

2006-05-09T13:44:00.000+08:00

had a surprise phone call last night. and the night before too. by two guys who i thought will never appear in my life again. okayy. drama. hahaha. what the hell. but yeah. last night phone call actually made me think alot. really alot. yeah. and my thoughts contradicted each other. which made me even more confused than i already was. okayy. nevermind. today, was quite a bad day in school. uber long lectures, never ending tutorials. my only break was at 145. then rest of the day till 415. yeah. fell asleep so many times. i feel so so so bad. ahhhhhhhh! i am totally totally doomed for maths. thats like the only sub i totally dont listen in lectures and tuts. i just cant stay awake during maths. sighs. hmmm. today danny and i were walking with ms tan back to the staff room. then she was asking us how we were coping. so i told her im struggling with maths. then she offered to go down for a drink with us. so sweet can. haha. but yeah. i wasnt free so i told her another day. i really appreciated the thought though.
anyway. went starbucks with yi mei after school. at siglap. haha. okay. i love yakking in starbucks. haha. and we ate ugly puffs and drank banana mocha frap. its not nice. i dont like banana essence. i like real bananas. haha. yeah. yakked about really retarded things and talked abt brisbane trip. then we went to xingwen's house to meet him and zat to choose song. okay. OUR FIRST MEETING WAS SO FUN. haha. i dont know why. its just so comfortable, all the bitching,
all the laughing,
all the retarded things we were doing.
yeah. that are the kind of things that keep me happy in life. haha.
so fun. haha. yeah. chose the song. ALL MY LIFE. its really really really nice. haha. yeah. now got pressure to learn it and perform it in three weeks. haha. stressed. yeah. cant wait for friday. (: and oh yeah. haha. zat is very very very entertaining as usual. hahaha. he and his 'OH MY MOTHER' in that hong kong accent. haha. and his gossips. very interesting. haha.
tomorrow im meeting alec! YAY! haha. okay. the last time before hes off to sydney. what the hell. sighs. haha. he will be having all the fun in the world and i will be trying to mug. yeah. trying. haha. oh well. i guess today ended well. haha. OH YEAH. ms tan asked us this qn inME moral edu. do we feel like we were forced to come to sajc? are we here by chance? that kinda things. yeah. well. during first three months i enjoyed my time in sajc. i loved the culture the people and THE BAND. after we got our o level results and i went sp with jiawei then. i kinda realised that i wanted to go sp and take creative media design. that was what i really wanted. but yeah. my parents wanted me to stay in jc so yeah. thats why i am still in sajc.
the only things that are keeping me happy and smiling while coming to school everyday in the morning is YI MEI, all my friends esp the band people and THE BAND.
yeah. just wanted to thank you people for making my life in sajc much better to get through.

sometimes i wonder whether are we drifting or getting closer.

2006-05-08T09:58:00.000+08:00

RETARD INCIDENTS OF THE DAY.

one. celebrated mother's day with my grandma, relatives and my family. my aunt was screaming at me and ATTEMPTED TO MURDER ME with a fork. haha. cause i wanted to leave earlier for church. and. we were laughing so hard, everyone in the restaurant was staring at us.

two. because of my aunt and cousins not allowing me to leave, i met kenneth so late today, that we got locked out of church. it was like our wayyyy postponed church appointment since this year. but yet, we still didnt make it. oh man. ended up going to tm and yak. and. we did his tourism tut. haha. so fun. unscrambling of words. anyway. out of point but, kenneth is really fun company. haha. thats way we go church together. (: and sorry for making you wait!

three. i was feeling so dumb just now cause i thought i threw my pi away. asked my friend to help me print again. thenn. i told alison what happened. and she told me that its with her. okayy. haha. i just remembered i left it with her on thurs. hahaha. how totally dumb of me.

all these just makes me feel like im losing my head.
i so need to get a grip of myself.

2006-05-07T17:34:00.000+08:00

yesterday was the concert. SAINTS ASCENCIO. it was amazingly enjoyable. right from the start to the end. the march in, the gimmicks, every piece, the encore. oh yeah. haha. and the dancing backstage during all those endearing young charms with mych, nicole and fang ying. hahaha. that was fun. haha. love the clouds in roman togas. (: hmmm. oh yeah. took loads of photos as well. esp with xiaowei. took a photo in almost every camera. haha. i love my saxtion. thanks so much for everything. (: okay. when 6 august comes, and the seniors leave. that will be tragic. oh mann.
oh and. thank you to everyone who came and supported. and JIAWEI, ERNEST, JARROD, ALEC, DANNYLAH, JIALIN, CELIA, QAZIM, HILMI, DINIE, KENNETH, WEI JIAN, LULING, SHARON, ALICIA, RUTH, JANNAH, YI SHENG AND HUIMIN for the flowers and balloons. haha. LOADS OF LOVE! :D
really sorry if i forgot anyone. cause yesterday was kinda really messy, too many things happening, too many people.

today is an emotional day.
i am a lousy best friend.
i am a lousy friend.
i am a lousy pw leader.
i am a lousy senior.
i am a lousy student.

anyway. CHEER UP BENJI! (:
you will recieve your box of happiness soon. and i hope i did make you smile at least a little. (:

2006-05-02T13:23:00.000+08:00

okay. I HAVE SUPER DUPER UBER SHORT HAIR NOW. hahaha. yeah. i think it looks weird. but nvm. hair can always grow longer. haha. im trying to reassure myself. hmmm. yes. jiawei. you so have to help me style. hmmm. this morning met up with alumni. i was super early to yak with wei jian. okay. the rest were super late. nvm. then took really random photos. haha. oohhh. sat that swing thingy with yi mei. we were so dizzy after that la. haha. hmmm. walked arnd with wei jian before my parents came to fetch. we were sick of western and chinese food. sooo... we went to LITTLE INDIA! haha. okay. the curries were superb. (: haha. then i went to pp to meet jiawei and took train down to orchard to meet ernest. oohhh. we went to cine level 9 and rented a room. to 'watch the dark'. weird horror movie. haha. ppl were staring in most of the time. hahaha. but we were still screaming like hell. haha. i like the room tho. just that next time, we are so getting the bigger one with sofa. haha. hmmmm. okay. the two of them wanted to dye their hair. so we went to far east. along the way, we kinda decided that i should get a haircut. so yeah. i did. at eclipse. haha. the guy there is really really really nice. haha. hes thinks im really cheerful. and have nice retro earrings. haha. so anyway. jiawei and ernest were just staring at me have my haircut. right after my haircut, around 8, i had to leave first. so didnt get to see their dyed hair. oh well. friday! haha. oh yeah. we had yummy gelare waffles today. I LOVE SPENDING TIME WITH THE LOLLIPOPS! :D haha. okay random. haha. oh yeah. saw a white worm in the taxi today. was totally grossed out. haha.

13 march. uber impt day. the holding hands partner official day. LOVE. (:

i miss you my best friend.

2006-05-01T13:33:00.000+08:00

HELLOOOOOO. :D
okay. yeah. have been really really really busy these few days. with band and studies. tired like hell. i have like no time for my family and friends. okayy. i havent seen my family for like a week. first time this morning i think. but anyway. went to mr glosz's house for bbq today. it was fun laughing so much today. haha. thanks to brandon especially. hahaha. yi mei and i went starbucks after that for coffee frap and strawberryberry tart. yeah. its berryberry. haha. we went to yak again. haha. thats like what we always do. okay. im conferencing with THE LOLLIPOPS now. haha. i super miss them now. haha. dont know if i can go out with them tml. hmmmm. okay. i havent written in THE BOOK for like ages. i am not down, im just really tired. okay. stop whining ansley. haha. hmmmm. OH YEAH. unglam thing happened yesterday. i climbed over the gate and got scratched. yeah. it was rather retarded of me. oh well. OH YEAH. met jiawei ernest jarrod and shion on friday at marina square for kenny rogers. yayness. haha. they are so much fun. laughed alot too. haha. okay. i am so lagging behind ALL my studies. okay. maybe not gp, geog and chinese. but chem, maths and physics. I AM SO PATHETIC. i need help. like seriously. AHHHHHHHH!
drifting away.
i need some positive vibes again.

2006-04-24T11:36:00.000+08:00

my favourite photo with jiawei. (: okayy. maybe second fav. cos got that dance one. so nice pls. hahaha.
THE LOLLIPOPS. and anavail. haha. sorry to exclude you. but yeah.
GREEN! my fav.
this is so pose. haha. but i like. (:

okay. finally uploaded all these neos we took on zouk night. and the first one was after some random sch day when i went to meet jiawei for usual sakae. haha.
I LOVE THE LOLLIPOPS. and i miss them loads and loads.
hmmm. band camp just ended. well, it was really really really tiring. haha. first day, ran thru a couple of pieces then we did the banner. its uniquely interesting i think. haha. THANK YOU BANNER PPL! (: then alec came to lend me his sleeping bag and he bought some really really weird green tea that was completely tasteless. haha. but nvm. he bought cocoa chexs! which we ate last night. haha. so anyway. yesterday was more productive. sectionals and full band. and contact time with mr glosz. i had no idea he met his wife bcos of band. its so sweet la. haha. anyway. alec came again and bought my fav pokka green tea! haha. and lent me his jacket. yayness. haha. okay. alec is very nice. but. i have no idea why i suddenly became his les partner. THANK YOU ALEC SO SO SO MUCH. hahaha. so anyway. today was full band and j1s with mr glosz. oohh. benji came and took us for impressions. haha. somehow, benji's facial expressions are quite funny. hahaha. oh ya. he so cant double task. tsk tsk. hahaha. hmmm. asked anneson to buy birthday cake for andrew today. thanks so much. but felt really bad. cos everyone was way too tired to celebrate his birthday. sorry andrew. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! (: oh yeah. thank you xiaowei. for taking care of me these few days. going to bathe with me and basically almost everywhere. haha. LOVE YOU LOADS AND LOADS XIAOWEI! (: anyway. tml is gonna be a long day. till 515. and i got loads of tuts to do. oh well. NIGHTS AND LOADS OF LOVE everyone. :D

2006-04-21T13:47:00.000+08:00

HELLLOOOO! im finally online and blogging. its been really really really long. things that happened the last few weeks. yi mei stayed over my house. we laughed like LOADS AND LOADS. hahaha. it was very comfortable having her around and extremely enjoyable. LOVE YOU LOADS YI MEI. (: met up with the lollipops, ernest and jiawei two wks back, and ate kenny rogers with them. haha. told you guys it was good. we watched the producers. an awesome movie. enjoyed it loads. hmmm. met jiawei last fri. watched take the lead. WONDERFUL SHOW! haha. loved it. we have this thing for dance shows. hmmm. what else? oh right. i have fallen sick. headaches, flu and cough. yeah. not enough rest. but nevermind. at least someone kind has bought panadols for me. haha. THANK YOU! (: these few days have been tiring, stressing over the postcards and tests. oh right. being sick has made me really really blur. screwed up my chinese test. forgetting alot of things. hmmmm. yeah. basically, i need more sleep. haha. anyway. I MET JIAWEI JUST NOW! haha. it was coincidentally. was walking with wanling near broadway towards the mrt. then this bright green bag strap caught my eye. didnt really look until i heard someone shout my name. haha. so surprised and happy to see him. haha. so we ended up going to tao huey shop. hmmm. so he was updating my abt poly life. glad hes having so much fun. I MISS YOU LOADS. and ERNEST TOO! hows NYP? hope you have fun. i miss the lollipops! hmmmm. oh ya. met eugene on the bus home. haha. okayy. stop reminding me abt the jeans with stars! haha. its embarrassing. hahaha. hmmm. band camp is tml. its really soon. oh ya. hope lilian gets well soon. think shes overstrained herself with studies and band. lilian. TAKE CARE! haha. i wonder if she will read it anyway. hmmmm. and xiuli. please please take care too. hmmm. must have self discipline okay? you can do it! (: alright. things are becoming more normal between us. thats good i guess. NIGHTS EVERYONE. (:

2006-04-04T11:50:00.000+08:00

finally. my internet connection is really low but still can come online. things have been getting better since that day. well. tues's alumni prac was fantastic. i just love being back in twe. i feel so comfortable there. :D thurs i only remembered playing tennis with joshua. haha. we are both lousy players. haha. but it was still fun. ohh. we are playing tml again! yayness. hopefully it doesnt rain so soon again. and thanks warren for the racket. such kind ppl in sa. (:
sat was absolutely FUN. surong and dorcus as our group leaders, had vincent, mych, lynnette, sylvia and hafiz in our group. group five, you guys were amazingly fun. love you guys. my legs are so aching until now. haha. we ran all the way without taking the bus or tram at all. imagine, from musical fountain all the way to fort siloso. and much much more. haha. but i loved the sentosa amazing race. ooh. after which we girls went to bathe. and well, i met the most vulgar ah lian in my 17 years. totally grossed me out. we walked from sentosa to harbourfront and xiaowei and i were holding hands the whole way. haha. we are the holding hands partner. I LOVE YOU XIAOWEI. so anyway, the breeze was nice, the night felt good, i loved the feeling. if only every night could seem so nice.
yesterday, i went to meet jiawei for lunch. sakae again. yayness. haha. we are super duper uber spoilt. always eating sakae. and we were observing this american guy sitting alone. hahaha. oh well. anyway, went with him to buy ipod nano. yes, im happy for you jiawei. oh ya. he bought a white addidas jacket too. he was so on a shopping spree. hmmm. we watched fragile, wasnt a very good show, but we still got freaked out quite a bit. haha. we are so ridiculous. then we went to ps to eat dinner. and yakked alot as usual. i missed him. and i miss ernest even more. i havent seen him since zouk night. ERNEST. i miss you. hope you are feeling better. the letter will come soon. dont worry. i miss the Es. (:
so anyway. i have an evil twin in class. dannylah! haha. we are like as short as loud as each other. haha. everyone knows us as the twins now. haha. shes really fun. hmmm. 06s11 is turning quite fine. everyone is actually friendly and much fun. glad to have them.
things have started to turn bitchy. i dont really know what to feel anymore. i wish i had you.

2006-03-28T14:05:00.000+08:00

that little bit of faith left is gone. that little bit of hope left is gone too. theres nothing left and im broken again. i know of this scenerio a thousand times, but why did i let myself sink. i got an advice just today, but i chose to hold on to that faith. now, its hurting. why am i so stupid?

2006-03-27T19:55:00.000+08:00

TRAGIC. my class page in the year book is tragic. really. the first thing we see on that page is A LONG POEM. and nothing else. then look closer, okay. super duper uber faint outline of some class picture. thats it. nothing else. sighs. it was disappointing. and the whole book is PLAIN UGLY. the cover is like OH MY GOD. ugliness. and. yi mei yilin and i have this uber unglam pic on the twe page. it was when we were posing to look super shocked to see chocolate in the banana. haha. that was in brisbane. so anyway. looking at the twe page just reminds me so much of twe. it was so much of a family to me. we were so close, but now, has things changed back there? what we left behind, was it better than it was before? if it wasnt, we failed as seniors. maybe i did. nevertheless, I MISS TWE.
OOHHH. mych xiaowei and i had an extremely embarrassing but funny umbrella trip today after self prac. haha. and xiaowei's umbrella is quite unglam. oohh. mych's one is nice, white with STYLE. hahaha. so anyway. qazim apparently saw quite alot of ppl in our lives today. and. another thing. xiaowei dropped my new green waterbottle and it broke. its okay xiaowei. haha. i still love you. OH YA. she bought this uber cute and pretty GREEN candle from the thai market. thank you so much. we talked quite a bit today. shared with her bits and pieces of my tragic love life. and she shared a bit too. oh well. im here for you and you're there for me. I LOVE YOU XIAOWEI! (:
got our new timetable today. you should have seen the band ppl. haha. all take out timetables and pens to note down when got similar break to hang out in the cafe. it was cute. so anyway. this just means that school starts proper tml. i so have to start mugging soon. its so not easy to switch back to mugging mood. ansley is just not meant for mugging. my mondays end at 515. and its one long hectic day. im so gonna dread mondays. i can just feel the monday blues coming. darn. i wish i had yi mei in my class. nvm. im supposed to be positive. everything will turn out fine soon.

I MISS EE JIAWEI AND ERNEST LEE LOADS. ):

pining whats left of my faith on you. its all that i have.

2006-03-27T13:59:00.000+08:00

was just talking to my mom today abt jc. then i just mentioned to her that i really do want to be a wedding planner. haha. and she asked me to decide on the name of the shop and shes gonna get me a website. its kinda too early eh? hahaha. so i was just thinking abt it. and i came up with one. sounds normal. ITS ALL ABOUT LOVE. (: hahaha. i like how it sounds okay.

oohhh. i got a haircut today. haha. well. its not so thick anymore. haha. remembered how zat was complaining how thick my hair was on smu concert night while styling my hair. and my fringe is shorter. i think i look alright. i think. went shopping at parkway too. finally. some shopping done. oh and. XINGWEN CALLED ME TODAY! haha. cause he was coming to my area for lunch and he remembered me. haha. i miss you wen. havent seen nor talked to him since smu concert night. suddenly i miss the times he walked me home. our fun and really really open talks. thanks for remembering me. and see you on tues. (:

i think im keeping the ice age 2 notebook for a while more.

2006-03-27T06:03:00.000+08:00

yesterday band prac was productive. i enjoyed sectionals somehow. haha. eef is always entertaining. combined sectionals was alright. i thought the woodwinds had a really nice sound. hmmm. oh right. benjamin from j2 is like. WOAH. a freaking freaking pro pianist. duh. hes taking a diploma. he played two uber long pieces and everyone was like. STUNNED. he had a standing ovation though. hes like. woah. im still stunned.

i met him yesterday. well. our first outing. it was fun. i enjoy talking to him, laughing with him, i feel comfortable with him considering it was our first outing. but im just not sure. hes really nice, sweet and funny. but. i dont want to be played again.

2006-03-25T15:53:00.000+08:00

CONVERSATION WITH DINIE. our compliments for each other. (:

**!~Dinie~!**(TPJC) **(ex-06S09 )**(06S08)** says:

its like ..

**!~Dinie~!**(TPJC) **(ex-06S09 )**(06S08)** says:

u have damn .. Hyper - fun - cute - happy personality !!

**!~Dinie~!**(TPJC) **(ex-06S09 )**(06S08)** says:

which is totally what i am looking for in a gal !!

**!~Dinie~!**(TPJC) **(ex-06S09 )**(06S08)** says:

heeheh

ansleee. I WANT TO BE A WEDDING PLANNER. says:

errrrr

ansleee. I WANT TO BE A WEDDING PLANNER. says:

haha

ansleee. I WANT TO BE A WEDDING PLANNER. says:

thanks!

ansleee. I WANT TO BE A WEDDING PLANNER. says:

thats nice

**!~Dinie~!**(TPJC) **(ex-06S09 )**(06S08)** says:

yeah no prob !!

ansleee. I WANT TO BE A WEDDING PLANNER. says:

haha

ansleee. I WANT TO BE A WEDDING PLANNER. says:

wellll

**!~Dinie~!**(TPJC) **(ex-06S09 )**(06S08)** says:

can include that in ur blog too !!

**!~Dinie~!**(TPJC) **(ex-06S09 )**(06S08)** says:

hahaha

2006-03-25T02:34:00.000+08:00

went to watch movie with jiawei yesterday.
YOURS, MINE & OURS! super duper uber NICE SHOW. (: took neos as usual. wasnt as nice as before. haha. they didnt give us our covergirl pose one. darn. nvm. still LOVED GOING OUT WITH HIM! thank you jiawei for all the fun. LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOADS! :D

cheer up. you deserve better than this. you know that. and. IM ALWAYS ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU. 24 hours, ALL THE TIME, NEVER FAILING. I LOVE YOU YI MEI my bestest bestest friend. (:

all i want is to find someone who will laugh and smile with me. (:

2006-03-23T14:34:00.000+08:00

ERNEST LEE BIN WEN! thank for everything during our months of friendship. all the gossiping, bitching, laughing, going out, watching movies and just everything. you are an amazing friend. haha. ehh. i have seen you in your unglam sides extremely often too okay. haha. thats why we are such great friends. i miss you! LOVE YOU LOADS LOADS LOADS DUDE! (:

JIAWEI. did i mention that i miss you too? haha. yayness. we are going out tml right? LOVE LOADS AND LOADS AND LOADS TOO! :D

2nd intakers. no no. NEW MEMBERS OF OUR FAMILY. the band. i am extremely sorry. if you feel that we are cold, hostile, not willing to let you guys into our group. but trust me. NONE of the first intakers feel that way. we are VERY WILLING to welcome you guys into the band and our family. and. we would be very glad if you guys would join us for batch outings, times in the cafe when we sit at the band table and yak. please dont be shy. we are open and friendly people. haha. really hope to be one bonded batch soon! (:

presentation skills workshop was fun. haha. well. the one min intro thingy, i talked abt band, tms, green, wanting to be a wedding planner, what bus i take to school, what time i get up, the incident on the bus and. thats abt it. haha. the three judges liked my smile. THANK YOU!
band was tiring but productive for me. long tones. arsenal and when you tell me that you love me. good band practice.

maybe we should just end this way.

2006-03-20T08:39:00.000+08:00

why did you even hold my hand when you are going to let it go anyway.
i was satisfied. i was happy. i WAS all that.
all these misconceptions in life is killing me.

2006-03-20T05:27:00.000+08:00

the cruise. was LOADS OF FUN! haha. thanks to iskandar, nolan, ervin, eugene, charlene and my brother. haha. both nights we went to the disco and danced. it was just crazy. and drank. oohhh. nolan bought me this alcoholic drink last night. it was freaking nice. dont rmbr the name tho. haha. on the first night, we were at the cafe playing this WHO WHAT HUH game. its uber fun. haha. forfeit was drinking a whole glass of water. last night. we were lying on the deck chairs and it was extremely windy and it felt really good. went the the front of the ship and was talking to nolan. haha. he was enlightening me with all his knowlege abt the stars and moon. DID YOU KNOW? that stars dont actually twinkle. its a misconception that they do. its because of the haze and everything that pass by them.
haha. i was so enlightened. oh and. nolan is a diver in the navy. totally cool. and he was telling me abt this time when he almost died. he actually swam in a typhoon at taiwan that time. what an experience. okay. oh ya. iskandar is that sajc dude who topped the dont know what australian dont know what army school or something. haha. i expected him to be stern and all but hes completely whacky and very fun. haha. and! i introduces them to PICTIONARY. hahaha. we split into two groups. iskandar me and eugene. charlene my brother nolan and ervin. and WE WON! i love the game. haha. :D

you know when i was lying on that deck chair. it was like the perfect opportunity to think abt everything that happening around me. like. my friends. whats happening to our relatonships. i feel so dumb. yes. everyone always tell me im naive and too trusting. i thought thats what all my friends are supposed to be treated. trust and all. i feel so stupid.

2006-03-18T07:32:00.001+08:00

okay. i was all ready to commit myself to all that. but i found out its not necessary at all. and now. i really do feel like an idiot. i know i am. really i know. im so dumb. to actually think you were serious or something. STUPID SILLY GIRL.

wed after band met jiawei to watch date movie. it was uber lame and gross but still laughable. after that we went to heerens to eat sakae. again. and took neoprints. hahah. its UBER NICE. (: oohh. and we took a duper long bus back to my house just in time to watch american next top model. didnt know it was the finale. and nicole's walk was freaking cool, especially the stomp at the end. baked waffles and watched polar express. which i so fell asleep really soon. then woke up at like 9 am. to continue watching. oh. and we baked more waffles. it was yummy. and the cereals too. BLUEBERRY MORNING. freaking yummy. we went to sas to find ernest and collect the scores for the workshop. OOHH. and jiawei brought me to iggy's house and. OH MY GOODNESS. he has the cutest cutest cutest sausage dog ever. elf. thats his name. its like. ADORABLE! and i carried it. ooohhh. it was so cute. :D went back to sas and played the sax for a while then we 3 went back to jiawei's place to hang out. left his house at about 7 to meet anavail at cine. took MORE neoprints again. haha. took a bus down to zouk. and on the bus. ernest happily passed to jiawei a worm that landed on his neck. and as usual. i screamed. gross please. well. zouk was bad. waited uber long to get in. drank fruit punches. haha. but at least i met some friends. and hilmi and brandon! who dragged me down to the dancefloor. hahaha. left around 2 plus am.

this morning ernest woke up at the same time to send me to school. thank you. i hope everything is fine in your family. the workshop was not very good. cause yaa. our batch didnt sound good at all. and. im appointed SECTION LEADER. oh my goodness. back in twe, it wasnt that freaky but now, taking an sas boy under me totally freaks me out. what if im not up to standard? okay. I MUST BE CONFIDENT. i cannot crack under pressure. i can do it.

JIAWEI. you were so much fun these few days. dont feel old or uncool or whatever. you know im always always 24 hours here for you if you need me. I LOVE YOU! (:

2006-03-15T15:28:00.000+08:00

HCONVERSATION WITH DINIE.

**!~Dinie~!**(TPJC) **(06S09 )** says:
got more shape ..
**!~Dinie~!**(TPJC) **(06S09 )** says:
hahaha
**!~Dinie~!**(TPJC) **(06S09 )** says:
pervert alert !!
ansleee. I WANT TO BE A WEDDING PLANNER. says:
YA LA
ansleee. I WANT TO BE A WEDDING PLANNER. says:
youuu
ansleee. I WANT TO BE A WEDDING PLANNER. says:
haha
**!~Dinie~!**(TPJC) **(06S09 )** says:
eh
**!~Dinie~!**(TPJC) **(06S09 )** says:
if guys aren't the pervertic pple ... babies wont exist..
**!~Dinie~!**(TPJC) **(06S09 )** says:
hahaha
**!~Dinie~!**(TPJC) **(06S09 )** says:
what a sentence ..
ansleee. I WANT TO BE A WEDDING PLANNER. says:
hahahaha
ansleee. I WANT TO BE A WEDDING PLANNER. says:
ya la
ansleee. I WANT TO BE A WEDDING PLANNER. says:
you so have to post it up your blog
ansleee. I WANT TO BE A WEDDING PLANNER. says:
or should i
ansleee. I WANT TO BE A WEDDING PLANNER. says:
hahaha
**!~Dinie~!**(TPJC) **(06S09 )** says:
i think u shld
**!~Dinie~!**(TPJC) **(06S09 )** says:
by the Philosophical Master Dinie
**!~Dinie~!**(TPJC) **(06S09 )** says:
or by the Karma Sutra Guru...Dinie

okay. tsk tsk dinie.

2006-03-15T09:58:00.000+08:00

THE NICEST NEOS WE TOOK! (:

this morning. my blog screwed up. as in seriously. but its okay already. cause I FIXED IT! and added new photos. its nicer right? (:
just remembered that. i saw a SUPER DUPER UBER NICE ADDIDAS GREEN SLING BAG! which jiawei says he will buy for me. like god knows when. and. the NIKE DUNKS. which are so nice. which are on his feet.
i gotta buy some materials soon. going to make a birthday card for christopher. quite special friend. haha. cause thru out our 2 years of friendship, he ALWAYS makes me laugh. and. really LAUGH OUT LOUD. thats what i do best anyway. haha. i dont think he reads my blog right. oh ya. did anyone watch campus superstar last night? thank god adriano is still in. i so have to call next week. ADRIANO WILL WIN! (:

YI MEI. my bestest bestest best friend. are you alright? cause somehow. you look down yesterday. did i neglect you or do anything wrong? SORRY. no matter what happens we are always bestest bestest best friends right? haha. I LOVE YOU A WHOLE LOAD! oh ya. remind me to tell you something tml. cause its freaking me out. (:

okay. random stuffs. dorothy says that my lips are nice. as in shape. errr. hahaha. and my eyes too. THANK YOU! (:

2006-03-14T15:25:00.000+08:00

LALALA. today started off quite bad. reached kallang and we had no idea what bus to take to pp mrt. haha. but we were still early. much earlier than alot of ppl. tsk tsk. jiahao conducts warm ups very cutely. hahahaha.
anyway. yi mei and i had to go ALL THE WAY DOWN TO SPS. shall not talk abt it. anyway. thanks christopher or was it jingkai for the drink. oh right.
CHRISTOPHER. take care of your back! and hope you are feeling better now. (: then. we took a very long bus ride to boon keng at walked into KFC. and OMG. i dont know why. but this WHOLE GROUP OF MALAY DUDES turned and stare at me. then this other chinese started staring too. and then. yi mei asked. why are they staring at you. I DONT KNOW MAN. im not that hideous right?! haha. freaky.
then we took a train down to marina bay. oh right. on the way, passed by raffles place. no idea why, but we started sniffing the place. somehow. it smells like sajc toilets. HAHAHA. then at marina bay, the lightings are like romantic or something. dim dim. sorry but my first time there okay. haha. i know im a noob. hahaha.
met xiaowei. MY HOLDING HANDS PARTNER! (:
took 400, the only bus there. and the place just seems ulu. oh ya. yi mei and i combined to bowl. so freaking embarrassing. our score is like. less than 50 i think. hahaha. whoops. sorry. noob what. hung arnd for quite some time and went for STEAMBOAT.
firstly, its my first time there and the place somehow stinks quite a bit. its like going to a wet market. i guess im spoilt but i just dont like it. and. this girl called me an AH LIAN.
like OH MY GOD. NEVER. EVER.
how could she say that? i mean. i was quite grossed out by them killing the live crabs and live prawns. and she called me an ah lian. gross out. IM SO NOT. anyway. the buns are uber nice. hahahaha. jonadab. dont say anything. and. jonadab is this guy who was sitting at our table of girls. hes our chef today. haha. and it was just uber fun today. oh ya. he says im VERY GAY. cause i laugh alot. and im very very happy. thanks.
hahaha. I LOVE BEING GAY. :D
we were laughing like 99% of the time. hahaha. its so fun.
and. im sorry im not demure. im not the kind of girls that speak softly and giggle quietly. im the SARCASTIC AND LAUGH OUT LOUD KIND OF PERSON. stop asking me to act more demure. cause thats the way i am and i love being that way?
overall. I LOVE TODAY! love the new batch of uber fun bandits. :D

just hope i dont get food poisoning. and. DINIE'S CHINESE IS GOOD! PROUD OF YOU! (: and. im so envy of girls who have extremely sweet boyfriends who do extremely sweet things for them. hahaha. serious.

ALEC AND ME! at nafa. before smu concert. (:

2006-03-13T17:01:00.000+08:00

LALALA. wonderful amazing beautiful day.
went out with jiawei in the afternoon to town.
and i saw lynn with joshua and some other girl. haha.
joshua choo is my future classmate okay. and he blots like everytime i see him.
and lynn. stupid BEAUTIFUL thinks jiawei is my potential boyfriend. haha.
so anyway. first. we ate sakae sushi. YUMMY! haha.
then. we walked to lido and bought tickets for HOT MAD BALLROOM.
then we walked to pacific plaza. my first time inside.
then we walked to far east. haha. and saw the weird shop.
anyway. OMG. the plastic sheet for my phone is like 9 DOLLARS.
jiawei and i were super shocked when we saw the price.
its like. HELLLOOO? just a plastic transparent sheet.
hmmm. so anyway. walked back to lido for the show.
super duper uber nice show. MUST WATCH!
this cyrus guy in the show is so cute. hahaha. it really funny too.
we walked to heerens after that to take neos.
very nice for the first time. haha. will scan in the neos soon. haha.
jiawei bought NIKE DUNKS! haha. its green and brown. duh.
really nice. and i had to try them on for him. cause they were girl ones.
but still super nice. then. i rushed off at bout 830 to meet my friend at tampines mall.
we watched big momma's house 2. haha. laughed quite a bit.
and the show ended at about 11. and he sent me home. THANK YOU. (:
and jiawei. today was uber fun with you. LOADS OF LOVE. :D

2006-03-12T19:02:00.001+08:00

NEW BLOGSKIN! obvious isnt it.
haha. spent the whole night doing it. tired now.
hmmm. but first. TRAGIC NEWS UPDATE.
yesterday. we got our class posting.
im not with 99% of 06s11 of first intake.
im not with YI MEI! and anisha, alicia, pamela, lynn, wei qin, darren, jun jie, jarryl and all those people. this is extremely saddening.
but well. my new class is quite alright i guess.
fun people. 18 guys and 7 girls. odd isnt it.

next. I MISS SMU PEOPLE!
yesterday was the concert. the last time im gonna be playing with them.
ishak is always arguing with me. haha. abt how young i am.
and i always argue back abt how old he is. hes 24 okay.
but he enjoys sitting next to me okay. hahaha.
cos i talk alot. and he says that normally hes sitting next to some geeky person or some boring quiet person. so he says that he will miss me. haha. we just laugh alot in band.
alec is nice. haha. he calls me kid. and he takes photos with me.
paolo is nice too. haha. oh man. i have super limited vocab. anyway, first concert that the saxophone section didnt have sectionals AT ALL. haha.
sunny is EXTREMELY thoughtful, nice, helpful and so. motherly. not in a bad way okay.
hes really nice. haha. so glad to meet these people in smu okay. (:
i really want to play with them again.
but i cant exactly commit myself totally to it because of sajc band, twe alumni and studies.
so i rather not give smu band problems by not turning up for practices.
oh well. im gonna miss them alot.
last night concert was memorable. still remembered how zat took off my rubberband and kept pulling my hair to get rid of the wave cause i tied my hair to school. haha.
but anyway. jiawei thought it was DAMN NICE. haha. quoted from his blog.
haha. thank you so much zat. :D

just had my brother's 21st birthday celebration.
haha. my cousins and i were camera whoring in my room.
as in seriously. we took like more than 50 photos or something.
hahaha. we were bored and had nothing to do. so TAKE PHOTOS! shall upload them soon.
anyway. its like 3 am. NIGHTS or GOOD MORNING. (:

2006-03-08T06:47:00.000+08:00

YI MEI:
haha. i hardly ever shoutout to you too. cos well.
everything to be said, is aready said. haha.
we have like ALL THE TIME in the world to talk.
on the bus ride to sch, during sch, break, after sch, band, after band, dinner, on the bus or train ride home. oh my god. i see so much of you everyday.
hahaha. but nevertheless. I LOVE IT.
haha. yup yup. I LOVE MY TALL TALL FRIEND!
well. i wasnt really upset la. haha. hellooo. i know im short. who cares. haha.
MY TALL TALL BESTEST BESTEST BESTEST friend is like, damn, you used all the adjectives. nvm. im gonna repeat. gorgerous, pretty, wonderful, awesome, amazing, brilliant, magnificant, fun, glam and HOT. lalala.
anyone who says your skirt is short, they are such nerds.
LOVE YOU A WHOLE HUGE BIG LOAD. :D

I find it very, very easy to be true
I find myself alone when each day is through
Yes, I'll admit that I'm a fool for you
Because you're mine, I walk the line

2006-03-08T06:02:00.000+08:00

latest ambition. WEDDING PLANNER.
haha. i get to design gowns, design the whole layout of the place, the decorations, what colour the curtains should be, what colour tablecloths, wedding gifts, wedding cake, plan the whole event.
SO EXCITING. haha. i love weddings. :D

we are all disappointed. but its all up to them.
im sure they can do it. they know they can.

okay. i have been waiting since sat night.
sitting, waiting, wishing you might call.
i feel like an idiot.
oh right. i am.

ying jie's definition of gay. GAY=CRAZY. good one i tell you.
he was talking abt how gay the moe system is this yr.
hahaha. and he wants to join water polo. so weird.
see what TJ has done to him. appeal to SA!

2006-03-07T14:34:00.000+08:00

since saturday, everything goes by with a blur.
i dont understand what even happened.
you didnt even bother to explain.
you couldnt even care.

wore sa uniform today. the shirt is just huge.
and MY SKIRT IS NOT SHORT. haha.
cindy. pls. yours is like. wayyy shorter.
hahaha. and i met jiawei and ernest finally after so long.
and ernest kept saying my skirt is short. ITS NOT.
haha. anywayy. we watched FD3. haha. uber gory.
worse than saw one and two. well. all FDs are like that.
hung out for quite a while at hmv, was just listening to alot of songs.
then hung out at burger king. talked and talked.
i love spending time with them. (:

oh ya. THANK YOU XIAO WEI! haha. for the green pouch which is still with you.
but still. I LOVE YOU LOADS! :D

samuel. i totally agree abt how they should deal with this themselves. but. its not your fault abt maintaining its former glory. i dont think i should have said so much. i dont wish to offend them. but i so want to give them a wake up call. i just want them to FACE THEIR PROBLEMS AND ADDRESS THEM. im so stressing rui qi and zi qing out now. and i feel really bad. IM SORRY.

2006-03-06T12:47:00.000+08:00

I MISS JIAWEI AND ERNEST.
what little red bimbos. no idea how jiawei came up with that.
but i miss them loads and loads and loads.
we so need to go out soon.

today was rather pissing off.
that dense woman at the tailor shop didnt understand the meaning of 'do not alter the length'.
she alter my shirt until it was so short. how am i supposed to wear it?
oh well. i have to buy brand new shirts.
pissing off.

another thing.
2nds are as important as 1sts. if not. more important.
their presence are VERY KNOWN.
so what if the 1sts are super good, where is the balance if there is no 2nds.
there is no support. and the beautiful harmonies.
and 1st and 2nd players are of same standard.
no one said that 1st players are better players. and they are not.
i dont wish for you to have such a thought when its completely wrong.
you are important in the section.
oh that reminds me. this is for TWE SAXTION.
if everyone in the section gives up teaching their juniors, whats gonna be left?
all the time when the leaders and mr glosz and zat talks abt attitude being so important,
do you guys even listen. there are so much problems within the section.
and no one bothers to solve them. just avoid or give up. then you think its gonna be solved by itself? please. you guys are smart.
if you guys are not gonna help yourselves, no one will.
if you cant play, dont cry, practice.
dont understand, look for your seniors.
and seniors, be there to help. to guide your juniors.
individually, you should always strive to improve, dont just practice scores.
do long tones. do running notes. do anything to improve yourself.
even J agrees. and oh my goodness.
please. dont get complacent.
okay. im an alumni. maybe if you think i have no right to say anything.
so be it. if the section collapses. its your own fault.
i am so not cursing you guys. im just letting you know whats happening.
i hate to see this happen to the saxtion. really.

2006-03-06T06:06:00.000+08:00

MY HEAD IS HURTING LIKE MAD.
okay. thats random. yesterday i didnt go out with my friend.
i didnt get to eat dinner. spent the whole night lazing arnd the house watching tv, drinking green tea. feeling absolutely pathetic.
so now i'm ill again.

enough of depressing things.
tml is the beginning of the second intake orientation.
am i supposed to be very excited?
maybe i am. dont know really.
almost the same og. it will quite fun i guess.

suddenly. i realise i miss my 4v classmates.
xinling, jessica, matilda, edward, denan.
AHHHHHH! i want them back.
this is getting stupid. im feeling super duper uber retarded now.
must be the headache.

i want to go out. and take cranky, retarded photos.
or beautiful sceneries. or random interesting objects.
im getting extremely random now.

2006-03-05T08:39:00.000+08:00

messages.
ALICIA. hellooo! haha. you are extremely fun to talk to. and laugh with. all those eye candy-ing times, literature, pe, lectures. uber fun. haha. you are changing to geog too right? lets pray super hard we get into same cg. love you loads. (:

WEI QIN. haha. well. i loved pictionary with you! haha. you are fun to talk to too and pls stop your lame jokes. hahaha. thanks for being there for me that day at smu. appreciate it loads. yayness. we are all in band. love loads. (:

ANISHA. okayy. my favourite bitching partner. and eye-candy spotter. haha. its been such an amazing time having you as a friend. haha. we can so gossip all day long. haha. even tho your lesbian partner has left, its okay. haha. you can form threesome with yi mei and me. hahaha. LOADS OF LOVE! (:

CHEN SHAN. didnt get to talk to you much. but you seem really sweet. haha. take loads of care and hope to see you arnd in sa. love. (:

EMILY. haha. BOUNCERS! haha. im so gonna miss pe with you if you are transfering to ac. haha. you are a extremely sweet girl and very interesting to talk to. i will miss you loads and loads. LOVE YOU! (:

LIANE. darn. you left us for vj. haha. nvm. hope you enjoy it there. haha. hmmm. you have like this gift in english which is im so jealous of. haha. 6 pointer. oh well. haha. you are very open and thats what i like abt you. haha. love. (:

LYNN. haha. you're beautiful, you're beautiful its true. hahahahaha. you and your singing. haha. very cute. thanks for being such a funny friend and a nice friend to poke during chem practicals. changing to geog? i hope you are! haha. LOADS OF LOVE! (:

ZAKIAH. haha. fellow bandit. woohoo. band rocks. hmmm. haha. zakiah is very random and she loves to suan mr chia. haha. you are so his favourite student. hahaha. you are really open and friendly too. love that. see you in band! LOVE! (:

SHI JIE. haha. talked to you a few times. haha. very friendly and nice to talk to. haha. tall too. haha. take loads of care okay. hope to have you in my cg! LOVE. (:

PAMELA. hahaha. super cute. love literature with her too. and eye candying. and gossiping. haha. rhythmic gym is so cool. haha. and your super big chunky pink smiley earrings are too. haha. hope we are in the same cg cos i will miss gossiping and laughing with you. LOADS OF LOVE! (:

SHARON. super responsible girl. haha. future student councillor. thanks for praying for me. like when im upset or tired. haha. thanks. blessed to have a friend like you. take loads of care okay? i love picionary with you. LOADS OF LOVE! (:

YI MEI. er. haha. well. haha. thank goodness we are in the same cg. ehh. it better be that way. haha. usual gossiping and eye candying is fun with you. glad i have you in sa with me. bezzies! lesbo partner. hahaha. LOVE LOADS LOADS LOADS. (:

MINGDE. you and your high pitched voice. haha. hes smart and way too hardworking. thank you for helping us pass our first maths test. haha.

MINGWEI. banana man! haha. super cute. hahaha. hope you can appeal into sa. we so want you here. haha. really. thanks for helping us during the maths test too. haha.

DARREN. haha. dont be sad that you are not in VJ. SA rocks more. so obvious. haha. we always see you outside. oh well. stop ramming into me during pe. haha.

ELIAS. haha. super small eyes. haha. you are very nice tho. very funny to talk to. haha. glad you are in sa.

KHALID. haha. its fun to debate with you. haha. and the way you say 'whatever' is still hilarious. haha. its very interesting to talk to you too. hope we will be in the same cg.

CHIN PIN. haha. very nice guy. an sas dude. i guess most sas guys are quite gentlemanly. must be that gentleman lessons you guys had. hahaha.

SHAWN. stop staring at girls all day long. haha. its quite disturbing. you are extremely tall i know. stop reminding me. haha.

STEINER. are you glad you are gonna wear long pants now? haha. sorry. but steiner is amazingly good at floorball. haha. thats why i always want to be on your team. haha. and hes nice. thank goodness you didnt get into TJ. yay.

JUN JIE. fellow bandit! yayness. haha. hes extremely friendly and very fun to take photos with. haha. cos we take retarded photos. haha. see you in band!

ZE FENG. the teddy bear lookalike. haha. lazy man. you are always sleeping. but when you are awake and you are fun to talk to. haha.

JARRYL. haha. stop reminding me im short too. haha. but anyway. you are nice. haha. and fun to play pictionary with. hmmm. well. your drawings are always extremely hilarious. hahahaha. yay. we are both in band. haha.

I SO LOVE 06s11. (:

oh and. happy birthday welsonn! hope you loved the card.
and i will be seeing you later anyway. haha. (:

2006-03-04T16:11:00.000+08:00

OMG. freaky freakish stuff!
china man approaches me to ask to lend my handphone.
i said no cos it was seriously batt dead and he asked for money.
said that he would send it back to me. huh? then i was like.
mrt very near. cos i was walking home for tanah merah mrt station.
but he was insisting on getting money from me. and it was so freaking dark.
and freaking freaking scary. i started to walk off.
and. he grabbed my shoulders. and i was totally freaking out like mad.
and. i ran off.
freaky.

today was absolutely a tiring day. floorball was FUN as usual.
our last 06s11 game. haha. so fun.
had to design the card for the class after that.
hope that they loved it.
went for physics tutorial and took LOADS of photos. haha. with everyone.
gonna miss them loads if we dont get to be in the same cg after orientation.
I LOVE 06s11. :D
hmmmm. so after school. i was extremely tired.
had sectionals today. and i took the section. its scary okay.
conducting your seniors. i feel so stressed. oh well.
i was looking seriously half dead and had a horrible headache and thankfully. i had XIAO WEI!
haha. xiao wei was super duper uber nice today. thank you xiao wei! (:
went for mac dinner with the j1 batch. talked alot. and laughed alot.
john chew is very very funny. hahaha. very amusing to talk to him.
okay. i so enjoy having dinner with them. yayness.

JIAWEI. cheer up! i dont know how i can help. but.
LOADS OF LOVE! and im always always here for you. (:

2006-03-03T12:07:00.000+08:00

LALALA. i failed to mention yesterday.
that yi mei and i ponned school for the very first time in our lives.
supposed to meet her at siglap mac at 7 but due to me talking on the phone till 4, i overslept.
haha. woke up at 730 and my mom was already up and shocked to see me in bed.
told her i overslept and she told the rest of my family that i had cramps. smart one mom.
haha. then i couldnt leave the house anymore since my dad thought i was sick.
was freaking bored. and yi mei called. so we yakked and yakked.
ohh. i also did welsonn's birthday card. i think its not bad. purple and green. hahaha. nice.
ay. we decided NEVER TO PON SCHOOL AGAIN. haha. cause we found it boring.
but anyway. its so much better to go to school and gossip. haha. (:

hmmm. another not so shocking news.
haha. i got 5/20 for physics.
this is so letting mr toh down. whoops. haha.
i so want to drop h2 physics. i dont get anything AT ALL.

today lectures were the usual, boring.
time with cg mates was fun, usual gossips.
hmm. tml is the last day with those who are leaving.
this is tragic i tell you. oh well.
must take photos!
hmmm. i went back to tms today. passed lenis welsonn's card.
haha. and yakked with farah. met up with zi qing after that to talk.
poor stressed up girl. TAKE CARE OKAY. i know its really difficult to hold on, but you must.
dont give up on them. really got to talk to them. if you want me to, i would help.
LOVE YOU LOADS. (: haha. and J calls you my lesbo partner in twe. hahaha.

hmmm. im too tired to think about our friendship anymore.
and. my dad thinks i look like im getting sicker and sicker everyday. this is bad.

2006-03-02T14:23:00.000+08:00

LALALA. using wireless now. it finally works.
hmmm. today was TIRING. combined band was not bad.
finally get to play with mr tau and xavier again.
haha. yayness. but this two days of moving stuffs to sas bandroom is freaking tiring.
arms are aching like mad now. haha.
ALICIA IS STAYING IN SA! SO IS DARREN! YAYNESS! (:

and. I JUST GOT A NEW BEST FRIEND.
haha. mr tan jianhui. (:

but then. i think i just lost a best friend.
i dont know whats even happening.
i dont know what to believe after hearing so many things.
this really scares me.
after being in sa, everything is changing so fast.
our friendship.
whats happening?

i was having quite a good day until everything went tumbling down.
someone was upset and all. and i didnt really know how to console her.
im pathetic.
then i started thinking about the best friend im losing.
and. I DONT KNOW MAN. this is killing me.

2006-02-27T09:04:00.000+08:00

LALALA.
its been 483762037586896246243 days since i blogged.
im doing fine in SA. i mean. I LOVE SA.
i love 06s11. i love the people in there.
i remember during gp last week. we were talking about homosexuality:tolerance vs approval or something like that.
my group was more towards tolerance. and khalid was SO SO SO AGAINST homosexuality. haha. then yi mei and i were debating against him. it was very pissing off tho. but the class was so amused by it.
now i bet he thinks we are lesbians. hahahaha.
i love floorball during pe. other the fact that i got rammed into by darren.
oh ya. went jiawei's house last mon to watch campus superstar.
fell on his marble stairs and got an ugly red bruise on my arm which is still there. darn.
but ADRIANO IS IN! WOOHOO! haha. he totally rocks. LALALA.

first intake is coming to an end. AHHHH!
im so gonna miss.
ALICIA, EMILY, DARREN, LIANE, is KHALID leaving?
OMG. so fast. ):

oh ya. witnessed a miracle.
i know of this couple. which the man had an affair, well, most probably.
the man was evil to the wife. constantly scolding her over little things.
going on overseas trips with that other woman. breaking her heart.
never going out with her. making her cry. leaving her to take care of their 3 children. she was tired.
the wife was very down, and she turned to God.
she often went for cell group, prayed everyday and helped out at the church as much as she could.
recently, her husband has been much nicer to her. much more pleasant.
he brings her out more often, treats her like how a man should treat a lady. their family seems so much happier now.
you might not think its a work of God, but i believe it to be so.
thank you God. (:

oh ya. i will be blogging very often SOON. when my wireless is fixed.
WEN NAN. dont think too much. you will be fine. i will be praying. (:

2006-02-19T03:00:00.000+08:00

THANK YOU ERNEST FOR E WHITE ROSE!
haha. I LOVED IT! see. im very grateful to you.
and this entire post. which is very short. is dedicated to you.
haha. be honoured!
LOADS OF LOVE! (:

2006-02-17T11:41:00.000+08:00

LALALA.
valentine's day was fun. (:
backtrack. spent sat, sun, mon and tues with jiawei.
haha. supposed to set a new record of a week. but no chance.
sat i forgot where we went. jiawei. where did we go? haha.
sun we went bugis to hang out.
mon we went to town for movie with ernest and to jarrod's house for tv.
tues we were each other's date. haha. best buddies date okay.
very fun. we met up with e rest of e gang for dinner at pepper lunch.
we stuck arnd there for so long e ppl there kept chasing us.
sorry la. haha. oh ya. i received 1 pretty pink rose from celia and ym and 1 huge beautiful sunflower from xw. oh right. and a ring, made of gold wrapper by jiawei. hahaha. THANKS SO MUCH. LOADS OF LOVE.

yesterday. i went to collect my new hp. haha.
YAYNESS. nokia 6111. same as jiawei but mine is white. i love it. (:
rushed for band and we played impressions of japan.
its like e most random piece. esp e starting. very cute. hahaha.
caught a lift from mr brando tan with mr glosz.
they are quite funny to talk to. as in. gossip?
met xw, zat, J at kopitiam with mr glosz.
didnt want to finish later than mr glosz, i ate so much faster i almost choked. haha. and mr glosz was like. "you eat so fast?"
whoops. haha. if i told him e reason he will probably laugh at me. so i didnt.
we were like an hour late for SMU band. oh well.
smu band is fun when i have very interesting sectionmates.
well. they are all much older than me and they are all guys.
paolo, ashik? not sure how to spell and alec. all very nice friendly ppl.
ashik and paolo and e ones who always bully me. haha. oh well.

today. was tiring. LONG LONG DAY. got two red balloons. yayness.
thank you guys.
lit today was fun. had to write a poem on balloons.
and mine was really really dumb. yi mei, maybe we should take geog. hahaha. but i love lit. dont know man.
met up with ernest to pass him stuffs.

im tired. i tried really hard to find an opportunity to talk to you, to say hi.
but its so difficult. oh well. i shall try tomorrow.
im a bit confused why you suddenly changed your mind and want me to say hi now. but nevermind. i guess its much better to say hi anyway.

2006-02-11T08:05:00.000+08:00

IM CONFUSED.
everyone expects me to stay in SA cos thats probably e most sensible thing to do now.
but. yar. my future. im not planning to be a scientist or anything that has to do with science at all.
i want to be a interior designer, work in tourism or be a businesswoman.
so doesnt it make sense for me to go straight to poly and not spend 2 years in my life in sa?
see la. jiawei. bring me to sp. now im so confused.
but I LOVE SA. i love e band. i love e ppl. i love e sch. i love being in e school. but whats e point. AHHHHH!
i feel so dumb.
oh ya. i got 12. and i was crying like an idiot yesterday.

enough abt it.
recently, i got THE BEST BIRTHDAY PRESENT EVER.
from my best friend. yi mei. a 800 pieces jigsaw puzzle. pooh bear best friend collection. it was freaking BEAUTIFUL.
and i loved it. thanks yi mei. loads of love. (:
and no. my birthday was not recent. it was just a late present. but giving late birthday presents has always been a tradition in our group.
so its not her fault. yup. and i was really touched.
hmmm. next. i went out to watch movie with jiawei on 5 feb. watched north country. VERY NICE SHOW. and we cabbed home. and it costed $22. freak.
went with jiawei to sp and tp today. travelled really long journeys. talked alot. we met at 830 at city hall for breakfast. played silly games.
oh ya.

JIAWEI. I LOVE YOU TOO. haha. just read your blog. :D

ZI QING. im sorry i didnt go band today. hope you understand. i love you loads and i miss you! (:

ERNEST. hope you are feeling better from your hangover. take care. and cant wait to hang out with you soon. love loads. (:

DINIE. thanks for making me laugh. haha. see. told you you are so much fun. (:

YI MEI. would it make a difference to you if i didnt go SA?

you know. sometimes its really weird. how you can be so close to someone, but feel like that person doesnt need you as her friend anymore.

2006-01-28T05:47:00.000+08:00

its chinese new yr's eve.
just went to see e graves of my two grandfathers.
i cant really say much.
going out with cousins soon.

hmmm. yesterday was tiring.
woke up feeling half dead. AND. met a pervert on e bus.
a freaking disturbing gross PERVERT.
i think. same pervert that touched yi mei's hair.
i was sleeping too soundly. DAMN.
im so gonna bring pepper sray next week.
captain's ball was fun. team concert band totally rocks.
i mean. WE WON! hahaha.
band perf was not bad too. yakked alot anyway.
after that. yi mei, xingwen, benjamin, cindy and i went bugis.
CINDY IS LEAVING TODAY. i guess im gonna miss her.
we just yakked and yakked and yakked.
after that i went to ps to meet friends.
some went to arcade to break their tennis record and one of them and i went shopping. haha. and. i helped him pick out shirts okay.
aaron came after that. and more walking.
OH YA. we played e geisha game.
e 'one glance to make them turn back and look at you'.
and mine were mostly girls. haha. lesbian attracter. ew. no thanks.
hahaha. we yakked alot as usual. met a few friends here and there.

im having lots of fun with them.
but if its making him feel horrible. i know i shouldnt.

and. its so ironic. how we are so close.
but i dont know if you will be there when i cry.
whether you would comfort me.
cause i keep feeling an emptiness in me.

i should so stop thinking of 'what if's anymore.

2006-01-26T13:17:00.000+08:00

WE RAN TODAY!
haha. e last part tho. at least we ran.
cross country was tiring. AND LOY FATT WON! haha.
hmmm. yi mei and i were talking abt how unromantic it would be to be brought by your date for a walk in macritchie reservoir.
i mean. it takes forever to walk in. and its tiring.
we will so dump any guy who brings us there.
that is IF it ever happens.
so anyway. since we didnt really contribute to loy fatt winning e champion cups. we contributed our voices.
SEE. we still contributed. (:
went toa payoh for lunch then ps for shopping.
then we went back for band.
band was FUN! haha. okay. we played le forza, defying gravity, when you tell me that you love me and those enduring young charms.
somehow. those enduring young charms sounds kinda WRONG.
haha. nvm. went for dinner at broadway.
i didnt know potong pasir had a broadway. sorry la.
haha. i dont stay at pp okay. then we went tao hui store.
or issit dao hui? haha. NVM. beancurd. yums.
and more gossiping as usual. or e nicer way of saying it.
discussing abt current issues.

OH YA! i watched memoirs of a geisha with jiawei and jarrod yesterday.
VERY FUNNY! haha. jarrod talks as loudly as ernest in cinemas.
as in seriously. but e show was VERY FUNNY. and unrealistic.
i mean. which young girl of e age of like 9? would fall in love with a guy who is like 30 or 40. and. which middle aged man would fall for a young girl of like 9? its so. wrong. oh well.
love e geisha walk. and e uber duper dramatic umbrella dance.
and. e names. there are like all those japanese names then suddenly got a PUMPKIN. hahaha.and we kept going " you pumpkin you." "you very gong li can." very funny pls.
then its like. showing your wrist to men, can actually turn them on.
its like. showing them that glimpse of naken skin. wth.
haha. but e show is interesting.
love e imitations we do. lalala.

anyway. okay.
i give up. as in. i shall not be bothered anymore.
since you are not.
and. everything is changing too fast.
will e grey clouds leave NOW?!

2006-01-24T13:40:00.000+08:00

im upgraded JIAWEI and ERNEST to crazy wonderful buddies.
BE TOUCHED MAN. hahaha.

LALALALALA.
sch was EXTREMELY tiring today.
had a whole day of tuts. meaning. tutorials. monday is TUT day. :D
haha. had pe too. yayness. i love captain's ball.
my CG are fun ppl. thankfully.
head was pounding like mad. it was pure torture.
at least i did long notes today. i think it did help.
sorry JIANHUI! for making you walk across e bridge to e bandrm. (:
anyway. xingwen came over for dinner. just to eat and watch campus superstar. or issit superstar campus.
ahh. whatever. haha. still e same thing.

OH YA. backtrack to saturday. POP was impressive.
as in seriously. haha. YOU GUYS DID GREAT!
you guys actually played in e rain when it was like pouring.
so proud of you guys. hahaha. oh right. and alumni too!
JIAWEI AND ERNEST. haha. sorry couldnt scream your names.
very embarrassing pls. haha. sorry.
anyway. went dinner with jiawei, ernest and jarrod.
then went ps to play arcade. SO FUN!
that new game ernest was teaching me. dont worry.
i will win you one day ernest! haha.
then ernest and i went to watch cheaper by e dozen 2.
he laughs very loud at cinemas. AND. vincent was sitting in e row infront.
as in SAS vincent. haha. so embarrassing.
thankfully. i reached home by 12. curfew.

OH YA. sighs. SORRY TO ALL TWE JUNIORS!
i so wanna go back to twe can. ):
but monday we end at 415, tues 415, wed 740, thurs 515, fri 600.
SORRY! its not that we dont wanna go back, it not within our means.
and. I MISS ALL OF YOU!

sinteck.
sorry if im embarrassing you by putting your name up here.
if you EVER happen to see this.
IM SORRY.

2006-01-18T13:32:00.000+08:00

okay. feeling better i suppose.
THANK YOU JIAWEI. :D

hmmmm. today was a very long day.
stayed at e cafe for like. 4 hours.
played hangman with ym, celia, xw, cindy and kenneth.
VERY FUN! hahaha. all e weird. oh right. queer words we came up with.
love hangman man. okay. sounds queer.
then. ym, celia and i drew these 2 pictures. which are welllll.
very very very queer. haha. will post up soon. haha.
hmmm. then went for our ONLY lecture at 1145. maths.
then went back to cafe. and played more hangman.
with ym, celia, xw, hooper, kenneth and reza.
random ppl we can ask to join. its very fun okay.
then we had sectionals. was talking abt some random stuffs with timothy.
hes a very funny dude from monfort. i didnt spell it wrongly okayy.
hahaha. and. addison is very very funny.
he was whining alot when we didnt tell him our inside joke.
OH YA. got new timetable. horrible can.
sch ends at like. 415. 515. i kinda liked my previous timetable.
so much time to yak at e cafe. haha. i love yakking. (:

i guess i can say im trying very hard to ignore you.
hope you are happy that way.